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I have nothing interesting to say. Time marches on and I stay the same. I sit here waiting... waiting for something to happen but nothing does. (That's life in general, not just on AdultFriendFinder). I know what I'd tell myself, "Nothing is gonna happen till you make it happen." Well, I still wait.
Waiting for IT to be final. Waiting to have extra cash. Waiting for things to change for the better but just seems like life is passing by.
Maybe it's about being almost 30, divorced, and in debt up to my eyeballs. Just isn't where I thought I'd be, (no one ever does), but right at the moment just can't seem to do anything about it, except move sideways in life. Neither moving up or down just continuing.
Now the circular pattern. Looking for someone to help me be happy again. However, to find them I need to be happy, cause being "non-happy" really doesn't attract women too well. So it's put on a happy face and pretend everything is fine but most can see through that. Guess I have no effort to change anything either.
Perhaps it's the season. Winter, Christmas (by myself), the short days and long nights. Hoping spring will come and things will change but that a few months off.
So till then it's another day of work, another bill to pay.