Hiding from the truth  

BlueLovinLatina 30F
237 posts
10/11/2005 4:08 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Hiding from the truth

so I dunno...I feel like if I'm about to break down and I dont fuckin know what to do. The last week was horrible and I feel so much pain. I've tried to hide it these past few days but now...I just wanna explode! I just dont understand...what the fuck did I do to deserve it all?!?

I know he's trash and shit and whatever else that's bad on this earth...And i shouldnt give a damn anymore, but it hurts so bad. He stepped all over my heart and ripped it to shreds. I want to scream and yell and kick and punch and I dunno...I just wantit all out of my system before I find myself drowning in misery. though I'm not far from it.

I need some distractions... but everything I do still reminds me of everything. i cant find any sort of escape. the memories are in my veins, I cant just get rid of them just like that.

I feel like I'm sinking and i cant claw for solid ground...

I'm all out of strength to pick myself up. I want to lock myself in room and not have any contact with anybody...but i cant even do that.

I'll just keep crying in silence, till the pain hopefully goes away.

zanzibarus 38M

10/11/2005 7:26 pm

my dear

i will give you some advice, its just a guy, i know he hurt you, and its hard to get over emotions so easily, but think of it as a lesson learnt. You were strong when you told him to fuck off. Thats how you need to be with people that hurt you like that.

Things will get better. If you need someone to talk to, you can always come to me anyway. I'll help you out.


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