What was I thinking  

Black__Dragon 46M
175 posts
7/23/2005 9:14 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

What was I thinking

You know I saw my X today... Well let me explain... We just happened to be in close proximity to each other... She had her back turned to me like she didn’t want to speak to me... I said screw that why be rude... I don’t care if you hate me but I spent 10yr with you ass the least I could do is speak... Seems these days the only time she wants to communicate with me is when she needs something... How selfish--that’s why I feel sorry for her... I realize our relationship had no depth and was run like a business... Cold and unforgiving... And the sad part is... I realize she doesn’t know how to love... Hindsight is always 20/20.... She also gained a little weight... I expected the opposite oh well let your self go...

But truthfully speaking I had feelings of no regrets, sadness or woulda, coulda, shoulda thoughts... I was completely numb... Heck my heart rate didn’t even raise up... A good sign... I also took another step... I actually had a date in my self imposed neutral zone... My apt and surrounding area.. Since we're in close proximity to each other I didn’t want to run into her while on a date... Now I truly don’t care what she thinks... Its so easy to put yourself in a mind prison...

Just a few thoughts--free at last

rm_mieze626 52F
145 posts
7/23/2005 2:50 pm

another test and you past...but never ever forget what is most important: STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF AND ALSO OTHERS!!!!! do you hear me??

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