New State of Mind--fork in the road  

Black__Dragon 47M
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8/14/2005 8:47 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

New State of Mind--fork in the road


I can say with confidence that my transformation is complete. The pain of the past is where it is--in the past and I find myself moving forward with vigor, confidence and a sense of purpose. However the last bit of business I need to attend to is eluding me... Commitment... I've been hiding behind my "friends" mantra as a shield to protect me from being hurt... I still wonder am I truly ready to be with just one person... One side of me enjoys the company of being with just one sensual sexual woman that has my best interest at heart and the devil on my shoulders tells me to just have "friends" diversify my portfolio... Besides I'm honest straight forward and the decision is on them to make whether to commit or not... Thus this is the quandary that perplexes me to this day... There is a fine line that I'm walking and I truly don’t want to leave a path of destruction behind... Which fork in the road do I go down?
Commit and risk being hurt again. Comit and truely focus my energy on one and risk loosing what I've worked so hard to acheive; a new regained sense of who I am (sounds like a inner fear speaking)... Am I compromising by even thinking this way? I guess the big question I have to discover for my self is--is it too soon after my divorce to even consider being in a relationship? Damn another moment of pause when I'm having fun... LOL

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Black__Dragon 47M

8/17/2005 4:06 pm

I appreciate your candid feedback travelingtexas... I truly feel we as can learn from each other as we move forward in our journeys and hopefullly someone else can learn from our experiences....


Black__Dragon 47M

8/17/2005 4:11 pm

Smile4u66 as always you find a way to reach deep inside my brain and clean my clock.... Your right again your advice is on time and appreciated.


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