Commitment phobia revisited  

BeachMystress 48F
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8/7/2006 3:38 am
Commitment phobia revisited

Original Post date - Sunday, March 13, 2005

As the time gets closer till the date my sub and I live together, I find myself being less scared and more excited. Major step for a commitmentphobe. LOL I'm actually truly looking forward to living together now, rather than smiling on the surface and saying, WTF am I doing inside.

I really hate the mornings I come home from his place. We live an hour apart, so I come and spend his days off with him. It is already almost like living with him several days a week. Last night, I realized at about 2AM, as I was weaving with tiredness, that I was forcing myself to stay up because once I went to bed, it would be time to get up and leave him. *sigh* I guess that is part of love.

I've lived with a man before, but this is the first time I've gone into it feeling it was part of a real commitment. Always before, I saw things as finite. While I know this relationship won't always be easy, I feel we will be able to work things out. I trust both of us and our commitment to making the relationship work. I can't wait to move!

Currently reading :
American Gods
By Neil Gaiman
Release date: By 30 April, 2002

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