Confessions of a Failed Comment Whore....  

BaronessK 52F
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7/14/2006 5:41 am

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Confessions of a Failed Comment Whore....

Well, I asked for 42 comments on Baroness' Big Bang Bored Bitchin' Birthday Blowing Bash-a-rama...!; I got 26 {and 12 of those were me responding back! }. So, alas, I have failed, miserably, at this appointed task set by myself to become a comment whore. {Anyone who commented for me...thanks...comment wankers! }

I know 'should have, could have, would have'...they are futile things...dumbing words in an ever changing world; they are the words of lost hope, dashed dreams, failed aspirations...leaving no room for forgiveness {not of others or of self}, grace, hope.... In other words...I should have made the picture for the post a naked shot of my tits or something like that!

I am 42 today. "You can't start worrying about what's going to happen. You get spastic enough worrying about what's happening now. I think your whole life shows in your face and you should be proud of that. Some people try to turn back their odometers. Not me. I want people to know why I look like this. I have traveled a long way. And some of the roads were not paved. I am not a has-been. I am a will be. Looking at yourself in a mirror isn't exactly a study of life. But I think your whole life shows in your face and you should be proud of that. As for the future: I'll go on believing there is one -- maybe even a happy one. Who's to say there is nothing waiting for me around the corner? A new job, a new relationship, a new home...whatever it may be, one thing is for sure -- this adventure is not over." {Ms. Lauren Bacall}

I shall start to...to do something drastic...incomprehensible to the 'average' person...I will...keep making sense, I will talk current events, psychology of the 'common man'...I will talk...{horror theme music inserted here} POLITICS! Okay, so not that drastic, more than to say that W...stands for weiner! I should flip my hair, giggle, fumble for one syllable synonymic words...I will become a 'stepford blogger'...*shudder* ewwww! I shall strive to please everyone, and in doing so please no one {especially not myself}. "I don't mind if you don't like my manners. I don't like them myself. They're pretty bad. I grieve over them on long winter evenings." {Humphrey Bogart a.k.a. Bogie}

"I was born when she kissed me. I died when she left me. I lived a few weeks while she loved me." "It doesn't take much to see that the problems of three little people doesn't add up to a hill of beans in this crazy world." {Humphrey Bogart a.k.a. Bogie} I have been so blessed in so many ways for so long...and I have also suffered more than most. I have undyingly appreciated the bounty laid before me by fate or luck or what have you while knowing that somewhere, some time else...I would suffer beyond measure for the happiness I was bestowed.

I have loved...ahhhh, how I have loved...and been loved back. For so much to happen in so little time...and then to lose...it all, everything.... To know, deep in my heart, that I had it all, that some never find or make or keep what I had...and that I lost it...through no fault of anyone...except perhaps Fate itself, or Life, or whatever it chooses to let itself be called. To taste the ultimate bittersweetness to the heights and depths of Life itself exploding into the cosmos.

I have been in relationships with so many, in so many ways; I have nurtured and cared, and in my own way loved so many...and have sent them on their way to be loved {hopefully cherished and appreciated forever} by another who was not me. I have helped the broken winged birds heal, then I have opened the door to mental cages...and felt my spirit fly as their's did. So many times, over so many years...even to the point {one time} where I was 'jilted for Jesus'. Yes, that's how I refer to it; and how can one rant against the son of God? *shrug* When we love, truly love, we will give anything and everything we have...including our strength, our love, and our heartfelt best wishes...to the one we love. Even if that love is leaving us. What did I do? I wrote a 'stupid' poem...of course!


I've been jilted for Jesus
so how do I complain
he's left me for Jesus
so how do I explain
that he's dumped me for Jesus
but left me in pain
though I'm happy for Jesus
I lost something, not gain
but he jilted me for Jesus
so I'm going insane

My friends and my family
all of them want to know
why he jilted me for Jesus
and made me feel so low
when he dumped me for Jesus
but didn't let me reap what I sow
and he jilted me for Jesus
and left me in woe


Yeah, I know the rythym and all bites, jerks around, and all that whatever; it wasn't meant to be 'pretty'...and I have never rewritten it or overhauled or tightened it up or anything like that. Too, I've written other things that were totally irrelevant to anything other than the urge to write or whatever {at that time, at least; they may have become relevant or 'useful' at a later date}.

Nibblin' on coffee cake
watching the cams shake
All of those typists covered with oil
Typing in g strings
on their front porch swings
Watch the guys, they're beginning to boil

Wastin' away again in Cyberitaville
searching for my lost password to Alt
Some people claim that there's a woman to blame
but I know, it's nobody's fault

I don't know the reason
I stayed here all season
Nothing to show but this brand new taboo
But it's just so nasty
exhausting not classy
Who thought it up I haven't a clue

Wastin' away again in Cyberitaville
searching for my lost password to Alt
Some people claim that there's a woman to blame
Now I think, Hell, it could be my fault

I blew out my laptop
with that last sex prop
Cut it short, had to cruise on back home
But there's one for backups
so I still get pickups
with audio to broadcast the moan

Wastin' away again in Cyberitaville
searching for my lost password to Alt
Some people claim that there's a woman to blame
But I know it's my own damned fault

Yes and some people claim that there's a woman to blame
And I know it's my own damned fault

- {Sorry to} Jimmy Buffett


I have dated guys who literally did only take 10 minutes {counting eating the pizza...wrong 'pie' guy!}; I wouldn't know about them, much, because I rarely give second chances...when all they do is apologize and then leave! {Hey, you...yeah, you ya dumbass...*I* didn't get off...not even CLOSE!} I was supposed to be getting around to finishing up 'fixing' some previously written songs, but I can't post them just yet {because I only have the ones for Wild, jeepers, SkyKing and possibly Intierzha done}. I also haven't finished {well, not really started even} on the chapter for comment whores. I haven't finished my post on bitches, Bitches, BITCHES, Heartless Bitches, Good Ole Gals, Etcetera, either. It's my birthday, though...so go find some porn or a warm body and let me alone!

The main thing that has been running through my head this morning {for it's about 6 in the morning right now} is what ComplexlySimple put in his latest post:
"I need a lot of attention even though I don't need to be taken care of...and it needs to be complete spiritual, emotional and physical...." I responded with quite a lot of other 'stuff' but the end was, "That's a Soul Mate...and I remember that." Yes...I remember 'that'....

J is on another 'sabbatical' from me, from others in general, from life in general; who knows if the bird will alight back near me ever again. So, once again, I was {and am} alone on John Mark's birthday, our anniversary, and my birthday...alone, totally, with my thoughts...and my memories. I am still grateful; I have my health for the most part {a great part}, and I have a roof over my head and other necessities. The two-edged sword, though...'tis better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.... Who added up the 'final' COST for such 'things', though? Did they feel the steel-tight grip around their heart as I do at times? Did they feel the unshed tears or feel for the ones they shed in the past...where it all took place, to be no more other than in memories?

In the last year I have went from living in the same house with the man I love and running a million dollar company {as Operations Manager} to living by myself hours away working as a dishwasher. My brain, my mental energy...it is on sabbatical. I still feel that my life is blessed, that I am 'lucky' {would 'feel' it more if the Georgia Powerball would come in with my numbers! }...but little things here and there and everywhere are changing. I do not know if they are for the better or the worse {at this time}; as far as long term, everything always has a way of working itself out...whether I do anything about/to it or not. It's times like this, though...I wish I could cry; just get all the bad toxins out of my system.

I am not stressed about my life, I am not worried or fearing growing older or about death or anything like that. I am not afraid of change or pain or growth or whatever else life has to throw at me. For yesterday, I basically stopped the 'ride' and got off for a bit and did 'other things'. Some of these 'things' were taking a walk by the river for a bit, buying some beer and sitting down with a few folks and having them help me drink it, and generally 'goofing' the day away. I am 'tired', though...that mental exertion point that it will all snap back to 'normal' like a rubber band or else it will break. No 'worries' means no stress; that does not always mean that things are fine. I keep hearing that line from my poem, "I was jilted for Jesus." As I said...compared to others, I have nothing to complain or bitch about...so I am basically complaining and bitching about THAT.

This blog has been brought to you by the letter 'B' {Courtesy of Baroness' Best Brothel and Bordello} -- Birthdays, this month, have been Anacortes, Baroness, FastFifties {Joe}, MissAnnThrope, and Puntachueca.


BTW, the picture for this post...has nothing to do with this post. Just trying to be like so many others...well, that, and Ron Jeremy is just soooo damn cutely hairy -- and the guys won't mind the blonde's bodacious boobs, I bet!


funintheday2006 56M
9659 posts
7/14/2006 6:42 am

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY. STOP WHINGING WOMAN.


Sweetpickles69 47F

7/14/2006 7:15 am

Sorry, I'm late on the comments. I had my own "comment whoring" going on, trying to make 1000 comments!

Peace,
Pickles


goboi_go 55M

7/14/2006 8:37 am

the annual self-assessment review?? you've given up alot and deserve a better situation.

happy birthday baby ;

your prev. em expired so I can't send back, and since you and I are standard Im SOL, but I like you anyway.


skyking412004 53M
5363 posts
7/14/2006 8:52 am

_____Happy Birthday Baroness. (So, where's your naked titty shot? Huh? Where? /// Pant, Pant, Slurp)


BaronessK 52F

7/14/2006 2:10 pm

OY! Gordon Bennett, what whinging? That's cobblers! Ya slagging me off, are ya? I wasn't whinging, I was wittering...ya dozy wanking tweed blighter!

Now give us a wee snog, hmmmm?


BaronessK 52F

7/14/2006 2:18 pm

    Quoting Sweetpickles69:
    Sorry, I'm late on the comments. I had my own "comment whoring" going on, trying to make 1000 comments!
Oh, I wasn't trying to make up to a certain amount by a certain time...I wanted 42 for my 42nd birthday...well, that and to keep bitching on until I drove it in the ground about the stupidity of someone bitching about supposed 'comment whores'! Well, ya gotta laugh, haven't ya?


BaronessK 52F

7/14/2006 2:44 pm

    Quoting hover45:
    This is absoulutely the best blog so far. I loved it, I got a little emo, I remembered past loves, and felt optimistic about what lies ahead. Funny you made so many references to Bogie and Bacall. Two nights this week I've been trying to explain to the young uns who they where,in chat and planning the get together for Saturday. Thought surely everybody at least new the song that goes like "We had it all, Just like Bogie and BaCall" you know. Mentioned I was going to dress like Bogie and would anybody be my Bacall, well got responses but then they asked who they were. Lauren BaCall is (I think she may still be living if not she just passed in the last few years) the most beautiful woman ever !!!! Looking forward to your blogs with even more anticipation tha ever.
Actually, there was another posting basically about Bogie and Bacall [post 317338], plus one of my g pages is on that. The posting has the lyrics to that song.

'As for her spectacular debut, "As great a break as it was, it was also a curse. The reviews I got, nobody gets. I was the new Garbo, the new Dietrich." "'The Mirror Has Two Faces criticizes the Hollywood definition of feminine beauty. There are even photos of you from the glamour days in your character's apartment, and in a key moment, you wistfully recall how great it was to be beautiful. As someone who was a manufactured sex symbol yourself, what are your views on that?' "'To begin with, I never thought I was beautiful. Sorry, guys. I wish I thought I was divine. Listen, I would've been a much happier person had I been able to look in the mirror and say, 'Gee, you are great! Love your looks!' Oh, come on.'" "'You were called The Look. You were the one who said, "Put your lips together and blow." You projected a seductive image women everywhere tried to copy.'" "' Well, I'll go along with that. But beautiful, no. In movies, when somebody new comes along, plays a part and it happens to click, there is a tremendous exaggeration about what you are, what you have, what this sudden new person is. In my case, I was announced as the Second Coming. I was this combination of Garbo and Dietrich and Bette Davis and Mae West all rolled into one--and that was just in one movie. Now, you know damn well there was no way I was any of that.'"

Ah, but Class she was...and is; as far as I know she is still alive and well...I did the page about 4 years ago, and I haven't heard mention of her passing; it would definitely make headline news. She had a son and a daughter with Bogie; she had a son with Jason Robards {spelling/correct?}. There was a movie where a guy supposedly had plastic surgery to look like Bogie {The Man with Bogart's Face}, a detective type movie film noir old style etcetera...can't remember his name, something Italian sounding to me, but he actually does look like Bogie. Check it out sometime; oh, and someone let a furniture company put his visage on some 'retro' furniture.

Go back to the other post or I'll figure out a way to have Company give you my y handle! I have 'stuff' on them, and Mae West, antique cars {somewhat}...just not on here! Enjoy your party, regardless...wanker!


BaronessK 52F

7/14/2006 3:16 pm

    Quoting goboi_go:
    the annual self-assessment review?? you've given up alot and deserve a better situation.

    happy birthday baby ;

    your prev. em expired so I can't send back, and since you and I are standard Im SOL, but I like you anyway.
Oh, not really...if you notice, I do them on a regular basis...trying to figure out how to bitch when I don't really have anything to bitch about, not really! I can't even bitch about having given up so much...because, at least for a time, I got so much -- sucks not getting to keep it, but I suppose that is supposed to be the trade off or whatever for having it so great at that time...or whatever! How about I just give you the links for the posts where I went nekky?

Ass Shot: [post 324943] and [post 325028] and [post 325056] and [post 327270] and [post 327276] and [post 348745] {All the same shot/pic.}

Tongue Shot: [post 325034] and [post 350328] and [post 362445] and [post 356940] and And now a word from the sponsor.... and Puntachueca and the Quest for Nekkie Gal Parts.... {Part Two} and [post 317546] {All the same shot/pic.}

Boob Shot: [post 353164] {Yeah, that's the one you're looking for, ain't it?! }

Nekky but it really doesn't show Shot: [post 370809] and [post 370983] and Dick's dick is 'dicked'...?! and Outline of a Segue...to Mother of All F'amblings.... and On again; off again...and Special 'Thank You!'.... {Good pics...nudity 'suggested'...and I was! }

She's Got LEGS Shots: Puntachueca and the Quest for Nekkie Gal Parts.... {This one shows that 44" of 66" that I have that is all legs! }

She can smile while she's doing THAT?!: [post 373318] {Ahhhh; the good old days! }


BaronessK 52F

7/14/2006 3:21 pm

    Quoting skyking412004:
    _____Happy Birthday Baroness. (So, where's your naked titty shot? Huh? Where? /// Pant, Pant, Slurp)
I KNOW I sent ya one...at least one! Hell, LOOK UP for the links, ya lazy wanker!

Dont' want to forget to mention...ya cute, ya know that?


goboi_go 55M

7/14/2006 4:28 pm

oh, I thought you meant other than those...but thanks.


brute472 74M
3480 posts
7/14/2006 8:08 pm

Hey I said it before have a great day and that was a superb blog thanks.


intierzha 44M

7/15/2006 12:22 am

Its possible I didn't see it, but I think you missed the most important thing about being 42... and as a geek, do I have to say it, lol? So, does being the answer for a year help with the question.

Big birthday hugs and wishes

C.


BaronessK 52F

7/15/2006 1:09 am

    Quoting lioness860:
    hey you...I am not as "gorked" today and it prevented me yesterday to comment much at least coherently lol
    Happy b-day, I love this age and you deserve the happiness you are feeling in those most insane moments.....
    huggles and all that squishy shit!!
    xx
    L
Do I need to feel good or bad for you, that you aren't still 'gorked' up? Thanks for the birthday wishes. Ewwww, 'huggles'...? Now I got Lioness girl cooties! {I know...most of the guys on here would KILL for the chance to 'huggle' YOU! }


BaronessK 52F

7/15/2006 1:30 am

    Quoting goboi_go:
    oh, I thought you meant other than those...but thanks.
Actually, goboi, those are the ones that I have POSTED...but not all the ones that I have...but since you're not interested....


BaronessK 52F

7/15/2006 1:40 am

Brute, you are so sweet...thanks and thanks...again!


BaronessK 52F

7/15/2006 1:49 am

Well, hello there, Spunky! Thanks for the wishes! It's okay on the timing, too...some of my family members have YET to tell me squat...and they've seen me...and we share the same birthday! Go figure.... Oh, and thanks for posting...I was beginning to wonder if I was talking to myself...but then again, that wouldn't have stopped me, so...it didn't REALLY matter!


BaronessK 52F

7/15/2006 2:00 am

    Quoting intierzha:
    Its possible I didn't see it, but I think you missed the most important thing about being 42... and as a geek, do I have to say it, lol? So, does being the answer for a year help with the question.

    Big birthday hugs and wishes

    C.
I didn't 'see' it...until I commented {using that reference/quote} on YOUR blog about something...BEFORE I saw your post here about it! I will say, again...that since you either can follow or even precede my thought processes...SEEK IMMEDIATE HELP Oh Cuddly One! BTW, though...remember...it was the 'wrong' answer, anyway! I don't suppose, though, that it mattered, in that way...a 'wrong' answer is still indicitive of something, isn't it? Of course, if that indication leads to...well, anyway.... It's all very 'funny', though...I will have to think upon it when I go to sleep tonight/this morning.


bustybettyboop 50F  
59325 posts
7/18/2006 9:19 pm

*sigh* i wonder if i'm a comment whore too! lmao! actually i love reading your blog! hugz,busty

..just join me on my blog bustybettyboop and still looking for some hot,sexy,creative contestants for my next contest...come join us! need a blog mentor or want to be one?


BaronessK 52F

7/19/2006 5:02 am

    Quoting bustybettyboop:
    *sigh* i wonder if i'm a comment whore too! lmao! actually i love reading your blog! hugz,busty
With your boobs and the mentality on this site...nah -- they'd post just to 'hit' on ya! Although, leaving a comment on someone else's blog makes you a comment wanker {wankeress?}!


bustybettyboop 50F  
59325 posts
7/22/2006 12:44 pm

i guess i'm a wankeress,then..lmfao!

..just join me on my blog bustybettyboop and still looking for some hot,sexy,creative contestants for my next contest...come join us! need a blog mentor or want to be one?


BaronessK 52F

7/22/2006 9:46 pm

I am an overachiever, myself, bbb...I strive to be EXCELLENT...and at comment whoring, comment wankering, comment slutting...and what ever else I'm leaving out in this sleepy state I'm in! {Can you believe some people are taking this waaaay too seriously?! What are the supposed 'comment whores' supposed to do...never ask any questions so they get no answers, and never talk about anything that may cause a response by anyone at any time? Oh, puleaaaase! Even then, and I'll use your pictures for example, they are 'erotic' and all, but they are not pornographic...and yet, of course, you get some responses to your posts because of and sometimes only in relation to the picture{s} you post. So are we supposed to also take off our all pictures? I just can't get myself into any serious frame of mind to actually take the issue seriously! Unless it's a blog with no commentable features...and then what would be the purpose of blogging and sharing, with no feedback? Sheesh...I'd be doing what I normally do...talking and answering one of my other personalities!


rm_mmmgoodnova 106M/106F
1259 posts
7/24/2006 9:40 pm

Happy Bday. I was sent by funintheday2006 but I will not be rude, as he suggested we all should be. (Sic 'em!)


MaggiesWishes 60F

7/24/2006 10:36 pm

Damn Brit Blogah of mine *funinthedayheywakedoffblogahcannotkeepawoman) sent me here ... he know's I'm dyslexic and everything is backasswards for me.

Happy Belated Birthday Darlin' Lady
Many more and warm huggies 2ya


catkit13 66F

7/25/2006 12:03 am

happy belated! didn't know i missed it until the fun god mentioned it in his own blog . . . keep on blogging, i'll visit again - keep up the good and fun stuff! bye for now, cat


BaronessK 52F

7/25/2006 7:50 pm

    Quoting rm_mmmgoodnova:
    Happy Bday. I was sent by funintheday2006 but I will not be rude, as he suggested we all should be. (Sic 'em!)
fun just wants my bod, and he thinks abuse is love, so the more we tell him what a wanker and all he is the more he wanks...and now he's delusional and making up stories about me, and kelli, and the cliticals, because he can't about sweet anymore because she'll garrote him, for real. We all threatened to have his balls on a platter, but we couldn't find them!

Oh, thanks for the birthday wishes!


BaronessK 52F

7/25/2006 8:06 pm

    Quoting amberabercrombie:
    Happy Birthday!..I can post 42 times for you if you like
Hey, speaking of comment whore, amber...did ya win that contest?

I don't think the 42 postings would help anyway...something about 'unique' comments...wonder if I went to, say, fun's blog if I posted the alphabet letter by letter would that give him 26 'unique' comments?


Actually, I might just do something, sort of, like just that -- thanks for the idea!


BaronessK 52F

7/25/2006 8:16 pm

    Quoting MaggiesWishes:
    Damn Brit Blogah of mine *funinthedayheywakedoffblogahcannotkeepawoman) sent me here ... he know's I'm dyslexic and everything is backasswards for me.

    Happy Belated Birthday Darlin' Lady
    Many more and warm huggies 2ya

He may have been being nice, in his way, mags...at least he didn't send you to Whores, Balls, Wankers, Sluts, Bitches, Drama, and.......your eyes would have crossed and stayed there! {One poster, gawd I hope he didn't really count them said that one, run-on, sentence had 870 words! }

Did you see dayun's latest posting? He mentioned being 'stalked' {his delusions are back, uh huh} by me, the cliticals, and kelli...and never mentioned poor sweet nor you...cheating git!


BaronessK 52F

7/25/2006 8:20 pm

    Quoting catkit13:
    happy belated! didn't know i missed it until the fun god mentioned it in his own blog . . . keep on blogging, i'll visit again - keep up the good and fun stuff! bye for now, cat
I said it to someone else, but it bears repeating...I'm still 42, so, really, how late can ya be?

Thanks!


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