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Well here we are. I'm starting a blog on the advice of a very dear and sweet friend of mine after talking to her and reading her own blogsite on here. She knows who she is and she's soon going to know just how damn special she is to me.
Okay, so enough about that. Why am I here and why am I doing this? Well let's see ... I joined AdultFriendFinder a long time ago ... probably back I'd say around '02 ... maybe even sooner. I've only met two women (so far) from off this website, mostly because when I joined it was a really a free-to-join and become active website and you could view three profiles a day. But ever since they started with this "members only can look" fiasco I've just not bothered. So why not pay $20 a month? Easy ... I've just not had much luck.
The first and only real woman I met on this site was named Kathy. She lived about a mile and a half from where I lived and was the sweetest, sexiest woman I'd met to date. She was an incredible lover and an incredible woman. Trouble was ... she was married and worked a very odd schedule that meant time with her was tough. The few times we did get together I was loving every moment. She knew how to do things like no woman before her. I've always wondered what happened to her. I still know where she lives and have driven past there often wondering, "Do I dare drop by?" I don't, though. I'm scared where we'd end up now that her son is old enough to be in college and she probably has the house all to herself.
After I lost touch with Kathy I moved to Florida and never really used AdultFriendFinder because in Florida (Clearwater) it was a playground. And, I used another "related" service and found all my success there plus using Yahoo's chat functions.
But anyhow ... I moved back to Ohio after a bad turn of events. Sad really ... I had some of the most wild and raunchy times of my life down there. I did things I never thought I'd do and saw things I'd only dreamed of seeing. My best time was with a gorgeous BBW gal named Dee. Wow ... was she incredible! I still wish I'd not blown things with her ... but it happened.
So after being back in Ohio for a few months I bumped into a gal that lives in Lima, works in Findlay, and lies a lot. Yes ... through AdultFriendFinder. I went to her work and tried to talk to her, but she was only into one thing ... "take me out to dinner and then I'll consider fucking you." Hey I'm all for sex, mind you ... but c'mon ... there has to be some kind of chemistry in the brain before there can be in the pants! A week later she tells me that she's just not going to do anything, doesn't want to be friends and doesn't want to talk.
That day I really seriously thought about just taking my chances and going back to Florida on the first available flight and sending for my clothes later and saying "screw it" to my things.
But I didn't, though I did more or less give up on my profile here and figured that I'd never get anywhere. Most of the women on here seemed to be players, head-game specialists and liars. Between Kathy and this Lima-loser I'd talked to probably 40 women on here from the NW Ohio area and not a single one was serious about anything.
But all that changed the day I was contacted by a very gorgeous, very sexy, very womderful woman on here. We've been chatting off and on for months and finally it looks like things are going to happen. Most of it was me ... insecurities and past experiences that led me to believe them. And here was a very experienced woman that actually wanted me ... and I was stunned.
But with some time and some chatting with her, plus my opening up everything ... I think we've gotten past all of that and are ready to take this to a physical step. In a few days ... we'll know for sure. In the meantime ... I'm just going to count the days and keep my expectations of myself low ... as well as reassure this wonderful woman that my expectations for her are none. All I expect ... is that we just be ourselves and we'll have the beginnings of something very incredible, very special and very powerful.
Here's to you my special lady ... and to us. Let's see what happens!
11/28/2005 9:29 am
I am so glad to see you writing a BLOG and sharing your true and honest emotions. I told you that I will ALWAYS accept you for who you are. Your past experiences have made you into the man you are today....and I happen to think that man is a wonderful, caring, compassionate, extraordinary and loving man. As long as we have honesty and open communicaton, we will enjoy each other's friendship forever. I look forward to a lifetime of happiness and LOVE with you in it. |