Silently I Wept...  

AtomicKisss 58M
80 posts
8/15/2005 11:00 pm

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2/20/2008 6:00 am

Silently I Wept...

Today I cried. As I was going through the clothes in my closet, I ran across an outfit that my wife (deceased) used to wear. I had saved it all of these years because it was her favorite one ‒ she looked so fine in it. As I looked at it, a flood of memories came rushing back to me. They were all very good memories. Her skirt and top served as a mnemonic of our trips together, the two of us slow dancing under the stars, driving down the road on a spontaneous trip, holding hands as we walked through the mall…

Almost instinctively, I placed the garment up to my nose in an attempt to catch a whiff of her scent. Trust me, after more than 6 years; her scent was no longer on the outfit, all that remained was the smell of household dust. When I came to the realization that her scent was gone, I also had to snap back into reality and face the fact that she was gone and that there would be no more opportunities to make additional memories.

Silently, I stood there holding my distant past, our past. Silently, I stood there desperately hoping for one more memory to titillate and grace my mind. Silently, I stood there alone, wishing to be left alone in my memories yet wishing to be comforted by a friend in my sorrow. And then silently I wept.

In Memory of Sandra Jean Patrick…


AtomicKisss 58M

2/20/2008 6:00 am

    Quoting sweetandspicy570:
    I don't why I never came back here before....

    I'm truly sorry for your loss.

    But I celebrate that you have had two great loves in your life (perhaps more?)

    I wish the same for myself and all people..

    Big hugs to you!

Thank you so much. Your comments - especially on an old blog like this one really touches me.


sweetandspicy570 59F
2832 posts
2/19/2008 8:37 am

I don't why I never came back here before....

I'm truly sorry for your loss.

But I celebrate that you have had two great loves in your life (perhaps more?)

I wish the same for myself and all people..

Big hugs to you!

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.----Dr. Seuss

wetnwildaquarius 43F

8/23/2005 5:11 pm

I'm so sorry for your lost, but she lives on in your heart and soul. I can tell this woman meant the world to you and her passing was a very difficult transition. If you believe in prayer then ask God to heal your heart and know the he is caring for her now. She suffers no more and she is now free from all pain. She watches you now as you reflect on the past and sleeps with you at night when u rest. She still lives on in your heart forever. Nothing can take that place. My she rest in love and peace. And may you heal with love and peace. Take care!

JaniceSCRN 53F

8/17/2005 6:48 pm

I have never experienced the lost of a spouse. I did lose my foster father who was such an intregal part of the healing process for me!!
Two years after he passed away I had the same thing happen, when I cleaned out my mother's closet. I was in Maine caring for her after a car accident. I found a pair of my father's pants. In fact they were his favorites. I took those pants and raised them to my face, hoping for just a touch of his smell. None lingered, but it did flood my mind with all the wonderful times we had together. I wept silently so as not to disturb my mom!! I agree with others who have posted, that lost loved ones live in our memories. I am sorry for your loss. I can't do it in person, so will do it hear(((AtomicKiss)))sending you hugs and lots of love!!!Janice

rm_FreeLove999 46F
16127 posts
8/17/2005 12:26 am

oy, for some reason it didn't show yesterday that you had a new blog, so sorry this is belated ... its amazing how the past sometimes comes back so intensely and you find yourself weeping; but these moments are also precious; precious for keeping the memory alive and not forgetting. from reading your previous blog, it seems your wife gave you so much love, and therefore she will always live on in the love you put out in the world ... best wishes and take care of yourself ...

[blog freelove999]

rm_bella_ 47F
4030 posts
8/16/2005 8:51 pm

I have been through the same thing...and even though her scent is gone her memory will live forever within your heart and that is all the counts.

lifeisablast333 53M

8/16/2005 3:14 pm

Very moving.....Very touching.....memories of loved ones are the best
But the memory of your greatest love.....We are sorry for your loss..
but glad to know that you have known the passion that true love inspires in us all....very glad to have found your blog today.
...............The Redneck And The Sexgoddess..............
today our thoughts are with you........................

dream_girl1000 50F

8/16/2005 11:25 am

very touching....the way you expressed your feeling...
im happy to passed by in your blogsland...

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