A long talk was had.....  

ArealUnicorn 44F
740 posts
9/3/2006 5:12 am

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A long talk was had.....

Well when I left chat yesterday/last night I was not feeling my best. I felt awful....I had to apologize twice yesterday due to my mood which I let get to me. And yes I do apologize when I feel it is needed, but no I wont be apologizing to the one who felt the need to attack after she found out i was down. She can go to hell for all I care. What she did is typical of some of the people in there...but anyway I digress...I left chat and thought to myself btw I do talk to myself some so.... "okay you, u need to take a break, this whole situation is getting out of hand especially when you act like that"

So I called my dad, yes my dad. He knows I am here and isn't happy but is fine with it. I told him what had happened yesterday since he knows the full story. He said " "(insert name) i know this hurts and I know why this hurts but you have to realize that with that site your going to run into that and if he did that to you again, yes again then he isn't worth it." My dad continues..."you are too good for this and you know it....your a beutiful woman who has to much to offer a good man for you to be wasting your time on such a looser. Quit taking his phone calls, his emails, his txt messages, quit waiting on him to move your life forward." then he says of course him being my dad "is he gonna be like the last one?" I told my dad "I hope not", then my dad who I had talked with earlier today said "well we will set it in motion if he is as long as ur serious this time, no phone calls no nothing..." I said "Dad it's done, he tormented me 4 hours today and I can't do this anymore" so my dad says "K I will make the call with the next contact he makes....u sure you made it clear your done with him?" I said "dad I am sure I made it clear"...

So then I talk with my sister, the only other person in this world that I trust totally, and her words made so much sense...my dad is my protector, why because I am his little girl and I have my son the other person in my dad's life that he would do anything for and I mean anything....so I talk to my sister and her words made me really think....it's amazing what a simple phrase can do for a person...

"Any man worth your tears doesn't cause any"....

There was more to the conversation but it's very very personal and her responses are somewhat true but too personal for just anyone to read...

So after those conversations I went to bed...putting yesterday into perspective as I thought about everything that had happened...then I wrote it all down yes actually wrote it....and when I looked at it in black and white I was amazed at what I had let happen....me.....and I laughed...yes laughed....

I am normally one of those woman that is strong and independent and does what she wants when she wants as long as my son is not affected in a negative way, I don't wait for a man to make decisions, I don't need a man to help me through life, I would like to have one but I don't need one and I had started to become that type of woman I despise....karma people karma...so here i am this morning my profile is back on and I have decided what to do.

I will not become that woman, I will no longer berate those woman tho either. why because I became one and now i know why and what it feels like to be them, and wow it's not a good feeling being there....

So I think I will take what is on paper and put it here, I think not sure yet....it might be a good lesson for others so they don't fall into the trap...and yes I do now firmly and totally beleive that the man who was at the root of this never inteneded to see me ever, I think he was a liar a fake and a fraud someone on here for titilation and to play a game and I got caught in it. Which today and will forever surprise me since I am not a trusting person...especially here...

Well I feel better, yes my heart is still broke why because regardless of the game being played with me I was an unwitting participant and my feelings were real even tho his weren't, but I do feel better about the whole thing and have started back to where I should be and let me tell you that feels better then anything in the world right now....freedom from strife and drama and games is great...

Im Back...and I feel better for it and will continue....


mickdevil 50M/52F
3496 posts
9/3/2006 6:38 am

soooooooo glad u changed your mind areal i think the little phrase u put in the from your sis is sooooooo true its really too bad that this site brings alot of rif raff along with it its the internet alot of loosers hide behind a pc because they are scared to death to show who they really are (just my opinion )and areal cant wait to pimp u my ass with devil along with it hehehe chat soon .....mick&devil

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justlooking798 48M  
4 posts
9/3/2006 9:33 am

Areal...

We've never chatted before, however I just wanted to say this... From what I've read you sound like a really great person, and far to good for this loser.

Keep your chin up and keep smilin ...
Take care.


ArealUnicorn 44F

9/3/2006 11:29 am

Mick I thought so to, it was like being hit in the head with a gentle but insistent hand....as for your ass and her's...hmmmmm....


ArealUnicorn 44F

9/3/2006 11:29 am

thx justlooking that is very sweet of you to say...


InopsPetitMeads 62M
282 posts
9/4/2006 10:21 am

I would like to think my daughters will continue to be comfortable enough to talk with me about anything.....you dad sounds like a good man....and more importantly...a good father...you are blessed with that.....


ArealUnicorn 44F

9/4/2006 11:26 am

Nick I am blessed for sure and as long as ur honest with your daughters and up front they will always be there too...

I think my dad is amazing probably why I am still looking for a good man...can't seem to find one that comes even close to him....I will keep looking


rm_tryyouharder 48M
22 posts
9/9/2006 6:44 pm

Keep looking. I don't know why your search for the right one is taking so long, but keep it up.


ArealUnicorn 44F

9/10/2006 9:46 am

lol @ tryyou...oh me either hun....not that I mind being single..I don't oh well...


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