my thoughts  

Angel_ii 54F
1226 posts
7/17/2006 9:41 pm
my thoughts

I knew long before, I ever knew anything about domination and submission I enjoyed to be tied up, when I was in high school, I would tie myself up and masturbate, my imagination was one of the best things about it. However, being that I was young and sex was not talked about openly like it is now, I thought there was something wrong with me. Let’s face it I was 14-15 years old, and was tying myself up not something you talk about with your best friend.

My first sexual experience was not a good experience; it took some time for me to trust again. Through the whole experience, there was that special guy that is always there for me, someone to talk to, not sure I would have made it through the whole thing with out him. I took me years to ever tell him that.

The being tied up went on by the way side, for several years, then one night, while I was with my soon to be husband, and he got the idea to tie me up, I was so amazes at how hot it made me. Unfortunately he did it only a couple of times, but I truly realized just what it does for me. Still that was the early 80’s and d/s just was not talked about openly.

It was not until I was about 35 and the internet was available that I found a whole world of people out side of my small town that has some of the same interests. Through my journey of realization, I have discovered many things about myself and also have found many people that are what I would call fanatic about their lives styles.

I consider myself submissive in my nature, not just sexually. However, as full time single mom, my submissive nature goes by the way side. When it comes to my house hold I am the one that is in charge. I see myself using many ideas that boss would use in a work place to get things done. Does it always work, no, but then I move on to another idea

Do I walk around the house in a black leather outfit with high heels, and nylons, no, I do like to scene with the person I am with, sometimes, other times I like to be spontaneous, and all depends on the mood that my partner and I are in.


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