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So, I got some pretty good advice in the comments section of my Blog. I guess the biggest thing is accepting that, yeah, we aren't fuck buddies anymore, it's been almost three years. And, the sex between us is so much more frequent then what I assume fuck buddies have. AND, he lives only a few houses done. It couldn't have possibly been planned. At least I don't think so.
I know I have a whole world of guys to meet and things to learn. I guess for some stupid reason I thought at least for a little while he and i could learn together. But if he's not willing to see what I great person I am, because I think I am, then it's his problem.
I just wish i could define what we are. But maybe that's part of the problem. And, I could attempt to make him jealous by mirroring his actions at the bar like someone suggested that also attended Acadia, but I don't want to play games, apparently that's his style. As much as I'd like to know how jealous, or not jealous he is, I ust can't do that.
He and I are kinda shy. Which i wouldn't expect from him because he's in this local band and generally around a lot of other people. But, I'm friends with his bandmates brother, which he doesn't know, and he says that he's shy offstage. And Shan is in a band as well so i guess he'd know best.
i need to disconnect my feelings. and stop wearing my heart on my sleeve.
p.s. thanx for the advice guys.
11/19/2005 7:18 pm
No problem as far as the advice goes, anytime. I apologize for offering advice that seems so high school. Oh well you are probably better off to forget this stuff and concentrate on classes. I found when i dived into my assignments i could become so wrapped up that i would forget about the Axe, Vil, floor mates and ummm...fuck buddies that i started to like more than a friend. You seem to have a good head on your shoulders, you will be fine.|