listening to love songs.  

AcadiaChickie 31F
12 posts
11/19/2005 9:56 am

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listening to love songs.

why am i such a romantic? i have every reason not to be. so much crap has happened that i shouldn't even think such a thing exists but yet i want so badly for it to. i really don't know what i want. i want a guy friend that, will actually be a friend. hang out, hold each other, watch movies whatever, and sometimes if we have sex that would be okay. i don't want a relationship, i can't do a relationship right now. i just got out of one and i hardly think running back into one would solve any problems.

"i gotta think twice before i give my heart away. cuz i know all the games you play because i play them too."

i think i should concentrate on school. only this year and one more to go. i've came this far. it will soon be over and i can get the hell outta here if that's what i want. i realize i can't run away from problems, but i don't think that's what i'm doing. i think by, well we'll call him....Ethan, ignoring that there's something there. it's his problem. i acknowledge that if we've been doing stuff for almost 3 years there has to be some type of connection or he wouldn't keep coming back. even when we would see other people we'd still end up having sex.
there was this one time, he called me over and it was just after school had started and he was telling me about his summer and something about a rollercoaster and it was the most simple thing ever but i really liked sitting there listening to what he had to say, it seemed then that sex was secondary. i'm going out of my mind. this guy drives me crazy. and i adore him, but i know i shouldn't.

rm_MaritimeWild 44M
244 posts
11/21/2005 7:03 pm

Like you said before, concentrating on finals should help to take your mind off any guy problems. I remember studying for finals when i lived in Tower and i had to disconnect the phone, rip out my internet cord in order to concentrate because there was always people wanting me to go out to the Vil,Axe or to their res or whatever..studying for finals in history was hard enough because there was alot of memorizing dates, peoples, places etc etc without any distractions. Myself i would make cue cards and read them over and over and listen to some tunes varying from the Beach Boys to the Ramones. Just hang in there! A pretty girl like you will meet mr right soon enough, and like most of us, it will probably be when you least expect it or are not looking for anyone.

rm_MaritimeWild 44M
244 posts
12/6/2005 10:52 am

Hope your examinations are going good for ya!

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