In Hell...  

ATLSmiley 52M
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7/31/2005 2:10 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

In Hell...

As I sit here going out of my head with thoughts that I have no right to have, I guess the following will have to be classified as
"the stuff that I will feel stupid about later"
I was asked about that very line recently and really couldn't formulate a very coherent response. So here, dear, is the answer. I have been writing for a couple of days now as a result of meeting someone that I have had a very strong reaction to. I didn't expect it, I wasn't ready for it (who ever is?) but here it is and I welcome it with open arms.
The thing is, this person is involved with someone at the time. Now, I know that this is none of my business. She has said she has feelings for me and i believe she is going to end up breaking it off with him and give it a go with me. She has been totally honest with me, and completely upfront. I have no problem with her regarding this or any other subject. Him, I would like to kill, but that is just primal caveman shit and I can ignore it.
MY Hell is this: he is over at her house RIGHT NOW. Granted, he is leaving, and she will call me as soon as he is out of ther driveway. but, I am climbing the FUCKING WALLS!!! I know there is nothing that can be fixed about this, i know there is nothing TO fix. Except me falling in Love (at first site, mind you) and ...
GEEZ - I sound stupid to even myself....

Post a comment if you know what the hell I am talking about.

BellaZMyPassion 57M

8/2/2005 5:20 pm

Oh My God!!

What you wrote is devastatingly familiar to me. Maybe it`s the thought of someone I love very dearly being in anothers arms. I`m lost in a cavern of sorrow and no light to follow...only whispers of her voice I have so carefully committed to memory so I can hear her dulcet tones.
If I can caress her just once more like we once did...I would melt.

Hang in there ATL...I hope it helps to know others have heard you.

ATLSmiley 52M

8/2/2005 8:03 pm

S'all good guys. It is what it is and ever shall be.
I have Faith that the universe will continue to unfold as it should.
Thank you for the responses, they are geatly appreciated.

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