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Day 40: Ok, now I am HIGHLY DISAPPOINTED.
Day 40: Ok, now I am HIGHLY DISAPPOINTED.
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Well, folks, while I’m really fairly peeved right now, I’m not going to bash lvr80. All I’m going to do is tell what happened, and let you good people judge. However, you will NOT catching me bashing anyone here, because for me, I feel it’s just wasted energy. And I’ve also learned that hatred and bad karma sent outward will eventually reach it’s way back to you, and at this time, I don’t need anymore of that in my life. Well, here’s what’s happened from last week up until today….
Ok, so I THOUGHT that lvr80 and I could be cool, and she said that she was interested in hooking up. So I talked to her while I was at work and I asked her if she was ok with me being a married man, and she said no, and that she wanted to help me get over this dry spell I’ve been having with no sex. So I said, ok, if you are cool with that, no problem. And it was my goal to get to know this person more before I jumped into bed with this person anyway, so we talked all last week. And we seemed to hit it off very well, and I thought to myself, “This woman is very, very cool, and understanding as well.” So you think I wouldn’t have any problems with her, right? Heh heh heh…we’re talking about ME here! They should have named me Murphy.
Anyway, so I made a quick suggestion on Tuesday that since I had found out that she works downtown, that her and I could get to know each other more, and maybe hook up for some lunchtime activity for Wednesday, some kissing, some hugging, a little fondling, to see if we could be ok with each other. And she said that sounds like a good idea and also if I was free on Thursday night, she could come over to my office to help me fulfill an office fantasy of mine I’ve always wanted to do. Well, Wednesday rolls around, and she can’t make it, so I said, “Hey no problem, maybe we could try for Thursday? We could maybe meet up for lunch, and don’t forget, we can hook up later that evening as well!” Well, she said there’s a bit of a problem. We can’t hook up on Thursday night because I have to go to a play for my nephew, and she already made prior commitments. But she agreed and seemed eager to meet me for Thursday lunch, and I told her no problem about Thursday, we could reschedule for Friday or Monday, if that’s ok with her, and she said Monday for SURE we will get together.
I was really excited on Monday.
Well, Thursday comes, and I find out she got into a minor car accident, and that she was late to work. So because she’s late to work, she will not be able to meet me and will have to make up her time at work during lunch. So I suggest “Well, do you think you could meet me later after work?” And she said no, because of the school play she has to attend. Well since I, being the understanding guy that I am, knew she said this, I said, “Ok, no problem; I totally understand these things happen, and if anything, I’m just glad that you are ok! Why don’t I come pick you up on Friday for our lunchtime, and we can try to hook up then, because I KNOW that you are busy Friday evening. I know things are hectic for you, and I’m a bit disappointed, but I’ll live, because you and I have talked, and you’re my friend.”
She agreed once more, and I’m counting the hours and getting excited with each moment. That night I must have had a raging hard on, and I know I rolled over once and hurt myself because I got “The POKE.”*
· The poke happens to guy’s only ladies, and I’ll explain. The POKE happens when a guy is sleeping and he has such an erotic dream or he’s semi-awake even, and he happens to roll over on his stomach too fast or flips over, and WHAM! His penis is like a steel beam, and it pushing into his groin so hard, it hurts like being punched in the gut, only LOWER.
Anyway, I awoke sore, but ready for Friday. And I knew that she had a conference meeting on Friday morning, but she said that she would be available for Friday. Well, Friday’s lunchtime rolls around and she jumps on IM, and says…yes you guessed it…"the conference went on too long, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have promised you that we would meet up when I knew this might happen."
Well again, I say, "well, I haven’t taken my lunch just yet. Can we meet up now?”
“No, my boss has a presentation at 1:30 PM and I promised I would help her with it.”
Ok…I’m trying to understand here and be the nice guy. She’s skipped on me 3 days in a row, but I’m going to be the good guy.
So I tell her, well, I’m a bit disappointed that we can’t hook up. How are you going to make this up to me?” I ask.
She says, “Well, when I see you on Monday night, I will MOST DEFINITELY make it up to you. It will be your night, and we’ll hook up at the office, for sure…”
“So we are for sure still on for Monday night?”
“Absolutely!” She says.
“Ok! Well, what will you be wearing for me?”
“Well, I can’t wear a skirt in the middle of all of this cold weather.” Understandable. “Well, I got to go. I’ll talk to you later!”
So, now Monday is now here. And I’m waiting for her MSN IM icon to appear online so I can talk to her. And it does…for about 30 seconds, and then goes OFFLINE. So I figure, ok maybe her boss is at work right there and she may not turn it on due to something. I figure it will go back on soon, because she usually wants to talk to me every day, like she did last week. And I wait. And wait…and wait….still waiting….waiting….nothing.
So I e-mail her, and ask her “Are you mad…I’m not mad at you, did I do something wrong, I still want to see you today, yadda yadda yadda…what’s wrong?” Well not exactly that, but in a civilized nice way of course. No response.
So it hits around 3 o’clock, and just to make sure, I send her one more e-mail to say, “Hey it’s 3 PM! Are we still going to meet? I just want to know if you and I were going to meet tonight like you promised at 5:15 PM, and I would come to your work and pick you up! Are you alright?”
I just got off the IM with her and she’s at her house, as she found out her grandmother died last night. Needless to say, it hit her hard, and I did talk to her for a few minutes up until 5 pm today. She said she’s really broken up over the whole thing, her mom’s a wreck.
Now, you see, my spidey-sense is tingling here folks. Why? Well, here’s why. I talked to her this week and she said that she has a commitment problem in which as soon as she begins to know someone well, and starts to have feelings for them, she bails on them, because she has issues of trusting someone she cares about. Why’s that, you ask? Because in the past, she was hurt from someone else who broke her trust and hurt her pretty badly emotionally and mentally, and now, she has trust issues with any guy she gets to know on an intimate basis.
And I don’t know if a week qualifies as us on an intimate basis, but we have been talking a TON on IM all last week about a lot of things.
So, I seriously am confused. Here she is, she SAYS she wants to be with me, but all of this stuff has popped up mysteriously. Can all of this happen? Sure it can, and especially right about now around the Christmas season it can. But there is just something that my spidey-sense is going “WARNING! YELLOW FLAGS! CAUTION!”
We are still talking, but right now, now instead of one woman that I was just talking with saying we’ll eventually get together for sex…now…I’ve got two. Isn’t my life just fucked up folks? Isn’t it just GRAND?
Ok folks, I’m done. You can hash it out. I really don’t know what to think now.
12/19/2005 4:26 pm
Keep extending your patience, and give her plenty of room.|
Your sense is probably picking up on something specific. Just keep your distance and it will probably come into view. Maybe ease off the IM, e-mail, and / or phone calls. No matter how supportive you may try to be, the quantity may still come across as suffocating.
12/19/2005 5:43 pm
I agree with Kimmers honey. I do understand that overwhelming urge to connect, and it's hard when you start seeing and feeling things that might not be there. Just wait for her to come to you and tell you what's going on. You've waited this long, what's another week or so??? |
12/19/2005 5:55 pm
Hey Joe, |
I agree with Kimmers777. One thing I've noticed is that you men move really, really fast; like you're really gung-ho and ready to jump...or get it done, or whatever,lol... But sometimes we women have to let it all sink in, get used to the idea. I guess we need the space to "come around"; get the right perspective, etc. What she's probably dealing with is the fact that you're married, and she's got to figure her role and be comfortable with it.
So patience, ease up some in your eagerness, and don't write it off completely!
12/19/2005 6:48 pm
OMG - If I had a dime for everytime I was told by guys on here "I got in a car accident" or "I had a death in the family", I'd be rich! LOL They're all noted in my blog here and there. She's blowing you off, Joe. Trust me - I have first-hand experience in this regard. I'm sorry that it's happening to you, too, but I would say it's time to move on.|
12/19/2005 7:32 pm
Well, so far, I've read the responses, and I will give her one more chance. I figure I'm a nice guy, and while nice guys finish last, it's because I fuck more slowly...huh? Oh sorry, I got distracted looking at Lusty's boobs. Hehe! |
Seriously though, I think it's best if I do give her another chance, and I will ease off a bit. But if I do get the runaround, then unfortunately, I might have to look in muffier pastures.
Thank you Kimmers, widow, pink, and Lusty. Kimmers, your first time here at my blog? Welcome! Widow, I love your writting, and hate the spiders. Hehe! Pink, everytime I look at that picture, it makes me want to get in my car and drive to your area and search for ya. And Lusty, as always, you have some very sound advice and some very lovely breasts. Mmmmmmmmm...
Ok focus Joe! Focus!