Day 245: Falling from grace and a get well to a friend...  

AGNJoe1 46M
385 posts
7/13/2006 8:44 pm

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7/15/2006 8:16 pm

Day 245: Falling from grace and a get well to a friend...


Well it seems that my profile and my blog have begun it's slow decline into the dumper. Since I've changed my profile somewhat, and my attitude has changed to take care of myself more than conctrating on informing you as to whom stopped at my blog, who gave me a wink, and a current update as to who was paying attention to me...well, my profile hasn't had a hit since I've made the change. My blog readership has also dropped as well as my comments on my blog. And it seems some of you have taken a distaste to my new attitude.

Well, at least I now know who my friends are and who were the "fair weather friends". It'll probably get worse before it gets any better. I'm still waiting to see what will happen as this continues.

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Also, I'd like to send my get well wishes to one of my anonymous friends here who reads my blog and whom I've chatted with in the past. I'm sorry, but since she's asked me not to divulge her name, I cannot say who she is. However, she is going to be going though a very serious surgery soon, and my thoughts and prayers will be with her throughout the next several days.
May God watch over you.

See? I'm not that much of a heartless bastard. In fact, I don't think of myself like that at all. I just think a lot of you don't even fully know who I am yet, and I am a very complicated man.

Well, cutting it short for tonight, so thanks for reading and God bless.

AGN Joe

rm_KarmoHunny 54F
888 posts
7/13/2006 10:42 pm

I hope your friend will come through the surgery with flying colors! You have to be who you are, period. Why change for strangers in cyberspace? Why does it matter what these strangers think of you? What are these people contributing to your life? Just curious.

Peace dude!


AGNJoe1 46M

7/14/2006 7:39 pm

Thanks KarmoHunny.

I do feel though that change though is good, but at the same time I have to be true to myself. I do believe that change, as long as it's to make myself a better person is good. Of course, changing just to fit into someone's else's idea is not what I want to do or be.

As to why it matters what people think of me...well, I do care somewhat and then again I don't. I don't care for the fact if they are going to be negative to me, as then I can just say to hell with them. But I do care what some people think of me, the people who are my friends here. I don't want to be mean or nasty to them because they've been good to me, and I want to honor that and respect that. My friends here do support me, and I support them as well.

I guess right now...I'm going though a bit of a difficult time, and I what I really want is to just get though this rough period. I want it to end so I can start enjoying life again on a sexual level I guess. Physically, I'm ok. Spiritual, mentally, emotionally and sexually though, I feel somewhat drained and tired. I haven't been able to relax. I'm stressed with my bills and debt which plays a part, but really, and I just want to be able to have sex again and feel like a man once more. That's all.

After a while, I'm hoping I'll get through this rough patch. It's just going to take some time is all, and a faith that things have to get better soon.

AGN Joe


rm_KarmoHunny 54F
888 posts
7/15/2006 12:11 pm

    Quoting AGNJoe1:
    Thanks KarmoHunny.

    I do feel though that change though is good, but at the same time I have to be true to myself. I do believe that change, as long as it's to make myself a better person is good. Of course, changing just to fit into someone's else's idea is not what I want to do or be.

    As to why it matters what people think of me...well, I do care somewhat and then again I don't. I don't care for the fact if they are going to be negative to me, as then I can just say to hell with them. But I do care what some people think of me, the people who are my friends here. I don't want to be mean or nasty to them because they've been good to me, and I want to honor that and respect that. My friends here do support me, and I support them as well.

    I guess right now...I'm going though a bit of a difficult time, and I what I really want is to just get though this rough period. I want it to end so I can start enjoying life again on a sexual level I guess. Physically, I'm ok. Spiritual, mentally, emotionally and sexually though, I feel somewhat drained and tired. I haven't been able to relax. I'm stressed with my bills and debt which plays a part, but really, and I just want to be able to have sex again and feel like a man once more. That's all.

    After a while, I'm hoping I'll get through this rough patch. It's just going to take some time is all, and a faith that things have to get better soon.

    AGN Joe
I agree with you about change. Just as long as it is not to fit into a mold someone has created. As far as what people think about you, I thought you were upset about what some strangers thought about you. I couldn't figure out why that would matter. Thanks for clearing that up.

I empathize with you about your bills and debt. I am going through the same thing. If there was a debtors prison, I'd be in there for life! I hope you will be able to get through this rough period and feel better soon. Being drained like that just sucks the life out of a person, doesn't it? Well, try and hang in there!

Peace


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