Day 13: All quiet on the sexual front...  

AGNJoe1 46M
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11/22/2005 9:43 am

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Day 13: All quiet on the sexual front...

Well, not much to report. I mean how many more times can I say I'm not getting anything?
No e-mails, no winks, and I had 2 people look at me yesterday, but one person was from France, and the other person was from my neighborhood in the Chicago area, but she informed me through chat that she doesn't see married guys, which sucks, but what am I going to do? I don't want to lie to anyone that I'm not married, but it seems that no one wants to be with a married guy in my area as far as I know.

I mean I see profiles of people saying that they want to be with married guys, and then you wink at them, to try and talk to them and either they don't respond or they say, "Sorry, I'm not into married guys." Well, if anything my blog is somewhat of a success. What, I have maybe 12, 13 views? Yeah, really successful there.

And then someone posted which are you getting more tail from, your wife or the people here? Boy I had to laugh at that one. I'd be getting more tail if I were fishing at a fish farm or on a fox hunt. Oh wait, I'm now offended the PETA people here at the site looking for sex, so I guess that's one less group of women I can try and get some sex from. Great!

Look, I understand that seeing married guys (or gals) is wrong. But when there's no sex in a relationship, and you've tried repeatedly to get your spouse to work with you and work again and again to rekindle the romance in a relationship, and you get NOTHING, what's a person supposed to do? And before anyone says, "try again", I'm still trying. I haven't given up on my wife, nor do I want to. It's just that I need someone to provide me with something physical as well. I'm starving for sex! Is that so wrong? I want to provide pleasure for someone sexually, to know that I'm still attractive to people, that I am wanted and needed. I don't feel that, and yet I provide that to my wife every day, trying to let her know that I still love her and want to be with her, yet I get nothing in return.

And that does hurt. Slight me and I do feel, prick me and I do bleed. Or so Shakespear said in something or other, my head is just spinning right now because I'm at work and I got a headache the size of Cleveland right now. Anyway, I'm just bummed I'm not getting any at the moment. Well, that's it for me. Maybe I'll post something witty tommorrow about farts or something and try and make everyone laugh. Thanks for reading.


zoopc42 47M

11/22/2005 10:55 am

sorry, nothing personal towards you but I have a big problem with cheaters. I realize you might not be getting it, but that person finding out is hurtful. you should talk and if none of that works then tell her you have looked elsewhere from time to time. that might get her to thinking of one of two things. she needs to give you some or that she wants some strange and it will open the door to swinging, which in this place is the golden key. at least it seems.

at day thireteen. youa re still green. I have heard of a guy that is on here like 5 years and only met 4 women from here. that is a terrible batting average

AGNJoe1 46M

11/22/2005 1:51 pm

Hey zoopc42! Thanks for responding. Regardless of how you view me, I do appreciate you posting and talking to me, and trust me, I take all comments seriously and I refuse to dog NONE of my readers, unless they are particularly vile to me.
First off, I would never want to hurt my wife, and I love her dearly, yet at the same time, when you do everything to shower your partner with affection, gone to multiple counselors, the family priest, and have tried over and over and over again, it is tough in itself. I've been married 5 years and can count the times we've made love which is only 7 times, which in itself is amazingly low. And before I married her, we were making love like rabbits. As soon as we were married, the sex completely disappeared. Ask me how I feel?

BETRAYED. People in love do not go from having sex at least once or twice a week to practically nothing. I've done everything in my power to tell her this and convey to her that I love her and want to be with her, but I cannot take this too much longer. And I'm still going to continue to try as well, because I love her and owe it to her to continue until she tells me to my face that she no longer loves me. But I can see it in her face that she still loves me, and I refuse to give up on her. So I'll continue to try to work with her until she no longer want to continue to work with me.

Anyway, while I've been posting my blog for only 13 days, I've been on her for over a year, and I've hardly gotten a look until I started posting my blog. And right now my batting average is probably more worse than a dead person at the moment. And while I am concerned with that, primarily I'm using my blog to try and get out my feelings and vent in here so I don't go crazy thinking about sex. And at times, it really does help. So for me, I kind of view this as self therapy for myself.

Well, that's all I got for now. Thanks for posting though, it's really appreciated. Good luck to you as well.

AGNJoe1 46M

11/24/2005 7:45 pm

Thank you Sheeana for posting on my blog. Well, yeah, I could just up and leave. That would be easy. But I'm not about to do the easy thing. I made a commitment to her as my wife to try to work things out with her because I still love her, and I feel it would not be right for me to bail on her. At least not just yet.
I recently talked to a counselor and he suggested is that she is going through the seven year itch phase, only it's two years early. I seriously think we've fallen into a rut, and I owe it to her to at least keep trying, until she says she no longer loves me anymore.

Recently, about a day after I wrote this, she and I had a big, BIG fallout, and I finally aired out my feelings towards her, and she admitted that she wasn't attracted to me, but for she still had love in her heart for me. She agreed that we try marital counseling again, and try to work on developing more time for personal time. She also told me that handling two kids, plus part time work, cleaning the house, making dinner, laundry, and other things were too much on her, and she asked me to help her with this so I offered to take a couple of evenings for her to rest while I stayed up taking care of the kids, while she could go to sleep earlier, and gather some rest. I'm hoping that with more rest and sleep, plus going to martial counseling, and trying to make a little more time for ourselves will help us reconnect. It'll take time, but I'm willing to continue to try for her and our children.

However, I still have needs and she still continues to ignore them, and that leaves me at a crossroads. I'm torn between her and my needs, and I while I love her, I honestly need to be able to have a sexual release, and masturbation will just not cut it. So as you can see, it's very hard to choose. And of course, I'm not getting anything her either, so for right now, my choice is my wife at the moment. Of course, that could change if she isn't serious about trying to work things out. I wish I could tell you more, but right now...I just don't know anymore.

Well, thanks for posting to my blog, and believe me, it's much appreciated. Please take care, and god bless.


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