Day 124: I'mmmmm BACK!  

AGNJoe1 46M
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3/13/2006 8:14 pm

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3/14/2006 8:08 pm

Day 124: I'mmmmm BACK!

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Man, it's been a while, huh?

Ok folks, we get to the AGN Joe update and then to news, ok?

Ok, I got pinkzplaytoyz back into my network, and I am darn glad to have her back. That in itself is awesome.

Then, since I've been away for a while, I've had a few people taking looks at me. I've had kittenkisses24, dilemma069, mycin62, cgarten, mimi3422, bostonsfour, and sweetnrough78! Wow! That is a lot of people. Well for me it is. Then I got e-mails from sideline1968 and from sweetnrough78.

Julie aka sideline was a bit worried because I haven't been on the site in a while, and sweetnrough78 tought I looked cute and wants me to get in contact with her. So let's get to the real news now and explain why I took so long to get back here, shall we?

Ok folks, if you are a reader to my blog you know I always try to lay it on the line and that I'm pretty much brutally honest with myself and what goes on here in my blog. Recently, I've been extremely busy as of late. I've been working on my relationship as you know with my wife, and seeing her in marital counseling in order to repair our marriage. And as of late, a wonderful thing happen folks.

I. Got. LAID.

Yes ladies and gentlemen, the drought is over. After 15 months, my wife and I finally had sex. I can finally say the monkey is off of my back. Now being that is a good thing, I thought things would return to normal, right?

Uh uh. Nope. We went back to martial counceling, and my wife said that she did it, just so that she would get me from talking about it and saying I bring it up every time in counseling sessions. So while it was a step foward, it was a tiny one. I still have a long way to go, and it's going to be a long hard road. It really hurt to hear her say that after, and I thought she really wanted to be with me. So needless to say, while it feels good to be a man again...I just don't know. There's a lot to work on, there's a lot to think on, and there's a lot of work for my wife to get to where I'd want her to be. Now, I'm not placing the blame all on her. I think I also need to work on things as well, as it takes two to tango, so to speak. It's just that there was a lot to think on.

Now, I was also absent because the IRS guy got me. I recently had to go back into for an audit, on a 2004 tax return. During that year, we had to sell our home in order to get out of foreclosure, and to pay of tons of overdue bills. Well in the biggest settlement with one of the credit card companies, they reported the settlement as a loss, and that meant that because I made the settlement, I GAINED money. Can you see where this is going folks? Yep, because I gained money from the settlement of a credit card debt, I earned money by reducing a debt. As such it had to be reported to the IRS, and because of this, I now owe another 1400.00 dollars to the IRS due to back taxes and penalties.
Folks, this now puts me at me owing over 43 grand in debts to the IRS, other credit card companies, lost repo'd cars that were voluntarily turned in, and other debts.
I'm getting severely depressed. I cannot file for bankruptcy because to do so would complicate matters because part of the debt is to family members, and if I filed, it would also wipe their debt out and I would end up losing family members. The bottom line is, I can't file for bankruptcy, and I have to pay this debt off. I am for lack of words, screwed, and not in a good sense.

Folks, I'm faced with now a choice I never have wanted to do. I am going to swallow my pride and my male ego. I am going to ask if anyone could help me out, please contact me via e-mail. I've set up a Paypal account for donations. As of now, I have rent to pay yet I cannot pay it because the IRS wants the money I owe pretty soon, within a 30 day period. I'm looking into legal options to file for an extention and work with them to delay it so I can earn the money.

I'm at a complete loss. I feel helpless, ashamed, embarrassed to ask for help like this. I cannot stand begging, but I do believe that when someone is in trouble, it's not charity, it's helping a fellow person back to their feet. And I'm not ashamed to admit it, I am in TROUBLE. If you can contact me, I will contact you via e-mail as to where to go to where I have set up a Paypal donation link. From there you can click on the link, and it will direct you in how to make a donation. Donate whatever you feel can help. A dollar, 50 cents, whatever you can. Every penny will help me get closer to freedom from the debt. If you feel this is wrong, I TOTALLY understand, I hate this more than you do, and I'd rather work for the money, I swear to God. It's just that I do not know what else to do or where else to go. I feel I've completely run out of options. And what's worse is I feel like begging to friends for help, in which the only way I could ever repay anyone is just by saying thank you, and by saying that whatever yo help me with, let me know, and maybe one day, when I can get back on my feet, I could help someone else and return the favor. Or if you are adamant about it, I would pay you back someday, by it might be years. But I would repay you one day. That's all I could offer.
I would put the link here, but AdultFriendFinder has rules about advertisements here, and would block the blog.

I wish I had more to say other than that. I've had a couple of meetings with the IRS on this, so I'm trying to work with them in order to pay what I owe. I'm not one from hiding from my responsibilities, and I'm not trying to get out of my responsibilities. It's just that I need help. I'm asking for help. It's all I can do right now.

Ok, I know that's a lot to dump on your plate for my return blog back here, but it's been a heavy week for me with a lot to think about on my plate as well. I apologize to all of my readers, so now, I leave it in your hands. If you want to help, the best way is to pass the word around and help me get the word out on this post. If you don't want to help, I'll understand.

If you have ANY advice for me, please, LET ME KNOW. I'm willing to look into any avenue I have to help my family, so please let me know, ok?

Well, hopefully I'll have better news for you next time I post, with happier news. That's all I have for now. Thanks for reading, god bless, and take care.


sideline1968 48F

3/13/2006 10:11 pm

Running at you --- jumping with joy --- grabbing you in such a big hug that you have to tell me that I'm choking you.

Well, yea I'm choking you! You talk about friends disappearing from AdultFriendFinder and then YOU go and do the disappearing act yourself! I'm of two minds about you finally getting laid -- glad for you, but sad too. Did she have to go and tell you it was a mercy fuck? How long has the counseling been going on?! Did I miss that post somewhere? Never mind. None of my business.

I wish I could help you in more ways than one -- put it this way -- the only difference between you and I right now -- the IRS isn't knocking on our door --- yet. I wish you luck in this bold move of yours.

Now I'm off to do a happy dance **** My friend is back!

Love from TX

pinkzplaytoyz 49F

3/14/2006 2:45 pm

Oh Joe, I know what you must feel like...My dad ran his own surveying business and the IRS stayed on his back always...It was as high as 30K one year...he had to set up payments that he's still paying on, even though he's retired. They have to work with you on can't give them what you don't have.
So sorry about the missus and the counseling, speaking from a woman's standpoint... sometimes it works to see your husband through new eyes... sometimes a bit of jealousy will do the trick... a tiny bit though, because you would want her to see you as a vibrant wanted man, not as a cheating husband. However, I don't know your wife, and I don't know what kinds of reactions she has... I just hate to know that you're going through all this heavy hearted stuff.
Keep your chin up!!

AGNJoe1 46M

3/14/2006 8:08 pm

sideline - Sorry Julie. Yeah, I know, I've been a baaaaaaaad boy.
Seriously though, it's really been an up and down rollercoaster ride for me as of late, and all I want is off so I can relax and take a nice long breather. But the ride is far from over.

Pink - I promise to keep my chin up hon. As for the jealousy deal, that's a no go. She doesn't get jealous. Sucks for me.


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