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628141 35F
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4/23/2006 12:51 pm

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9/4/2011 6:23 pm

life

A sexual fantasy of mine.........
I've always considered myself a very sexual person...even living in the confines of a very strict household...I felt abnormal in a way growing up, when I thought about why I came out this way and lets say my brother or sister did not, I wondered what happened in my creation that made me think the way I do. I at times unrealistically thought that, maybe, I had been intended to have been born a male child, but by some freak of nature accident I ended up being born a woman with a man's sex drive.

I recall my earliest fantasy being that of me, a five year old girl....having this adult relationship with Huey Lewis....yes, I thought he was so fantastic. My mom caught on to my infatuation and would ask me not to watch MTV anymore because she thought I was wasting my time waiting to watch Mr. Lewis's video. She was doing what any mother would do....a mother who sees her five year old daughter obsessed with watching a man that is her age......kinda scary!


I grew up with sex always on my mind....this always made me feel ashamed in a way...I kept it secret from my siblings, my parents, and even my friends....I know this even shaped everything in my adult life. My views on sex are so different from others at times...I continue to have this internal struggle within me: the fight between the desire for me to do the depraved and hedonistic things that my mind thinks of versus the realistic and prude self that insists on putting limits and rules and cautions to everything that seems so much fun (for those psychologists out there: its the battle between my ego control and ego resiliency or the battle between my id and superego).....I would say that I am well adjusted to everything....no serious psychological issues due to this early exposure to sex, SEX, SEX..ha, ha..just kidding....

back to my fantasy......
so the fantasizing carried on in secret...I fantasized about being with Boy George, George Micheal (both of whom are homosexual...what does that say about me.. .....), Cory Nemick, Balthazer Getty, Jordan and Jon Knight (New Kids on the Block), the Fall Guy, Hassellhoff in Knight Rider, G.I. Joe: Duke (in this case I was always Scarlett or Lady Jane), Zack Morris (Saved by the Bell), the lead singer from INXS, Luke Perry (90210...yes embarrassingly so....), and I still fantasize today....hello my profile speaks about wanting to be intimate with Jesse Hassek from the band 10 Years.....he's the ultimate, though....if the opportunity ever arose I'm quite sure that I would be so shy that it would take an act of Congress to actually do the deed....the little nasty deed........


p.s. I really like pin ups girls (as noted by my posting of their pics on my blog)....does this mean something..no, I don't think so..I know many women that enjoy pin ups as well....I just like the way sex could be implied without totally showing the peaches and the cream like most mags show today..........................


rm_on1eluv 36M
2 posts
9/2/2011 9:07 pm

Lets (if you are with it) do our fantasies and make them reality. Knowing me I still haven't got to worry about running out i.e.. one thing I want to mess around or have sex in public places. Or watch a women masturbate/flash/ something like that in a public place and no one knows but me; don't know what I would do with that.


rm_on1eluv 36M
2 posts
9/2/2011 8:58 pm

Sounds like life alright,but no worries baby girl. Having a strong sex drive makes you honest and not scared. You let yourself go wild and ain't it fun to truly not give a damn here and there boring holding back, meaning not afraid. So tear us guys up, real talk even if I never get back on this site. 1-LuV


rm_urboytoy014 32M
1 post
5/24/2011 4:50 pm

i think you and me can work on this..


rm_FreeloveinTX 31M
1 post
7/21/2010 1:00 am

I'm glad I'm not the only Elvgren fan still out there anymore


rm_Dangermonk 41M

5/12/2006 12:12 pm

Joking or not, I am thinking about trying to meet some crazy people. It sounds fun.


rm_Dangermonk 41M

4/24/2006 5:05 am

I think a strong sexual appetite is healthy for anybody, whether they are male or female. Being a guy, I know what it is like to have a high sex drive. I'm almost embarrassed to admit that I have known quite a few women in my life that have had more desire than me. I wouldn't say "normal" is the best way to describe your situation, but there certainly isn't anything wrong with it.


628141 replies on 5/11/2006 7:28 pm:
"I wouldn't say "normal" is the best way to describe your situation, but there certainly isn't anything wrong with it."

Yeah....that's what I always say, you don't have to be normal to have a high sex drive...........you can choose to be abnormal with a high sex drive...it's crazier that way...........and who doesn't like crazy sex or sex with crazy people.....

628141 replies on 5/11/2006 7:29 pm:
that was a joke

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