Sea Change... or was it always like that?  

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3/6/2006 6:52 pm

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Sea Change... or was it always like that?

I'm sitting here at work procrastinating pretty hard. Pondering the question of why.

There is so much going on in my life at the moment its crazy. As a person who is, generally speaking, in control (at work anyway) I manage the workload, the stress, the do or die decisions on projects, the whole kit and caboodle with no problems whatsoever. Best of all is I generally leave it all at the office.

When I do get out of the office ‒ far too often it’s late at night, I want to be someone different, drop the business face put on my preferred casual laid back persona.

For some reason the girls I tend to attract seem to be been somewhat submissive, not complete sub’s but not very decisive either. Decisions always seem to be deferred to me, like:
• where to go
• what to eat
• what to watch
• should we or shouldn’t we
• etc, etc.

I don’t really want to be the one making the decisions all the time. When they do make decisions they event / venue is generally so far from my interests that I couldn’t care less about going ‒ invariably I do go to most as I believe in participating things a partner wants to do.

I'm not sure what I want out of a relationship whether it is to be in charge or not… the idea of a mutually agreeable equal relationship is the most appealing. Does that exist?

Whilst it is nice to have a woman who can cook, clean, and do those “womanly” tasks I'm not after a slave ‒ if I was I'm sure there are plenty on this site that may want to accommodate me. I'm toilet trained (yeah amazing I know), can cook better than most of women I know and occasionally can be found doing some cleaning (no I'm not gay lol). I moved out of home when I was 18 and eventually had to learn to do these most basic of things.

Where am I going with this? I have no idea… I came to this site as a bit of an experiment, since joining a few weeks ago it has prompted me to re-evaluate my life, its choices and probably destination.

Two articles in the SMH over the last month really have had me thinking. The first is that high income earners in Sydney (me) are amongst the unhappiest people in Australia (me). The happiest being those who live in Australia’s hippy towns, for some reason.

Second was in the MSH today a Doctor who after separating from his wife went from earning 300k to 40k as part of sea change /lifestyle change. (Unfortunately for him the courts have ordered him to pay child support on the income he is capable of earning not what he does). Until today he was happier with his life enjoying it as he now had time.

I think my point is that money isn’t everything (wow I can’t believe I just said that). Whilst it allows me to do pretty much anything I want it appears right now to be a byproduct of what is making my unhappy? The unhappier I am the more successful I am the more money I earn.

Go figure

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