alone again... tales of the lone wolf  

58wolf 58M
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8/22/2006 10:30 pm

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10/3/2006 7:07 pm

alone again... tales of the lone wolf


I'm less alone than I am looking for HER... the one who fits my hopes, needs & expectations. I've ben looking a long time, and while a few have come close, or come many times, 'the one' has yet to cross my path, or if she has, I was unable to sse that she was the one.
I've met the looks, the personalities, the submissiveness that allows the men to be the man, not some wimped-out shadow of what masculinity ought to be, just like I'd like the woman to be the woman; let her femininity out, rather than trying to prove that she's 'just one of the guys'... if I wanted one of the guys, I'd be surfing 'Out personals' not this site.
It's not about who's the one who handles the bankbook - different people have different gifts, no matter what sex they are: it's not about who's going to have my kids as I already have the 3 sons I'll father, & the doctor saw to any other possibilities: it's not even about who's in charge around the house, though I do have a distinctly Dominant nature. I am an Alpha male and make no appologies for it. I'm seeking my Alpha female, not a Beta, or some hopeful from the pack who just wants to get noticed. I want to find the real deal; the one who'll rock my world & I'll rock hers right back! The one I will die without once I know her, because she will become my world to me, as I would need to be for her. It isn't about if she's 25 or 50 or any age in between. I have a profile in Alt as well as here... yes, I have a kiny side, but am very adaptable and easygoing, just am not willng to ever settle for plain ol' vanilla ever again. Heavenly Hash, Superkid, Choc-a-motion, Cherry Garcia, whatever... Just be interesting, and able to open yourself to the new as wella s enjoy the old, enjoy trying novelty, besides aking comfort in 'the usual' etc. Be youirself, average or better looks, anywhere from tiny or petite to a snuggly wench built to cuddle with. Just not a BBW or very large person, or anorexically skinny... neither does it for me physically. Have a sense of humour, a friendly personality and good disposition and let's see whee it goes from there.
\|/ Is she out there? Does she really exist or is this just an illusion that I've lived with since my teens... the notion that there IS a 'right one for everyone' and I'm still looking for my Ms Right after all these years. Sigh...

58wolf 58M

9/5/2006 7:01 pm

Well, it's a couple of weeks later... If I've met her yet, I don't know about it. If you're a subbie, slave or submissive-minded female who thinks I might be interesting, you won't know if you don't drop me a wink. Even a mild-manered switch might turn out to be her. I loved the blog by _thalia_... I am so in the zone with that, except I'd have remembered to bring a blindfold too... & yes I would do that for her, to her, with her... she would know she belonged to me, body, soul & spirit. we all have some sort of body. whatever we're like, we all have a soul. There are too many people going around that are dead behind their eyes... the ones that lack spirit, who do without thinking & just exist, without ever really living. She will be one who kneels but lives.


58wolf 58M

9/8/2006 6:31 pm

Been finding my job increasingly stressful over the past few months, a lot of new changes, policies, etc. It started to show in how I reacted & responded to others, including those I might have found to be an 'interest'... maybe even "the one" I've been searching for. So today I walked into HR & took a leave for the next month, extendable for an additional month if needed. Maybe the rest will do me good, it could also open free time to look for her before everyone sems to be huddled down in their little coccoons for the winter.
Anyway, I did this for me, as I tell others a lot of the time to be kind to themselves; this isn't going to help me win promotions or bigger paychecks, just trying to get myself more grounded and help me look for the person who could posibly own my heart.
PJ


58wolf 58M

9/30/2006 7:12 pm

I still say I'd have brought the blindfold to use on you... and done more than your story described too.
x, PJ


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