Unleash the Inner Me!!!  

4biddenlove4us 49F
262 posts
4/3/2006 9:45 am

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8/28/2006 6:52 am

Unleash the Inner Me!!!

I'm tired of being someone who everybody wants me to be.
Trapped and scared in my own insecurities not that l have any just those that don't know me think that of me.
I just wanna be free! Unleash the inner me.
Do you know how it feels to be
walking in someone else's shoes,
and to be confined to whatever it is they do?
I know exactly how that feels deep
inside, because my whole life has been a dark lie.
I'm not ashamed to show who I truly am.
Just the things they say it hurts me,
because they think I'm not really me. These empty spaces are killing me.
I just feel that I can't really be me!
People look at me in all of these strange ways.
Makin' it hard to get through the day.
They talk and talk, but it seems that it's true.
Cuz I'm not me,because when it is drummed into you all the time you start believing it but I'm trying to get through!
I feel lonely when I'm in a crowd. I feel silent when I'm so loud.
These black holes in my soul, I just really can't condole.
I wanna be complete! Don't wanna be discrete with my lifestyle.
I wanna feel comfortable in my own skin.
I wanna feel that my life is not a sin!I just want to be alive!!!!!
For the people who don't understand the meaning of this blog is because what l am trying to say is that l pretend to be happy when actual fact am not due to the fact l found l had a terminal illness but some people were under the impression that l was telling lies about me as a person which is true but not lies as in being a liar about who l am but what is happening in my personal life health wise.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and making your comments, it is much appreciated. THANK YOU!!

Kaliedascope61 41M
4084 posts
4/3/2006 11:06 am

I used to feel that my inner thoughts couldn't be accepted easily by others.

HotSexyCupl 46M/42F

4/3/2006 11:19 am

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gemini0157 59M  
6842 posts
4/3/2006 12:04 pm

We can't spend our whole lives pleasing others, living our lives the way others expect.... just maybe many of these insecurities are only within you.... try letting yourself out!

MONA_14 29F

4/5/2006 2:36 pm

you are invited to be our Friends

SirMounts 102M

4/23/2006 3:01 pm

As I sometimes say, when the person on the outside matches the person on the inside, then one may enjoy a higher level of inner peace.
Welcome to blogging, 4biddenlove4us. *smiling*

jjsunshines 58F
20 posts
5/1/2006 1:10 am

Remember me friend....tis always best to be honest.....when ye lie....will only come back to haunt ye....as I always say.....what goes around comes around

jhoss1022 49M

5/5/2006 7:07 pm

dont worry, the past is over, worry about yourself now & 4 ever.

TropCock 48M
8 posts
5/12/2006 12:02 pm

!Be alive!

Just do what nobody else expects or want you to do.

Sease day, and it will be yours!

4biddenlove4us replies on 7/24/2006 9:59 am:
One step at a time but thanks for your comment {=}

StatuSedgyHairy 59M
158 posts
5/15/2006 1:05 pm

Beautiful...just be urself and do not worry about anybody else...and it will be ok take care lady

4biddenlove4us replies on 7/24/2006 10:02 am:
Frank, if there is one person who knows me well then you fit in that category. Thank you {=}

4biddenlove4us 49F

5/25/2006 2:11 am

    Quoting tracy_de_lacy:
    Yeah remember me too... yep even in blogland ya can't escape the sins of the past. If ya don't hurt people they won't bite back. I can understand why you don't want to be you, I wouldn't want to be you either.
Look, don't give me all that poem shit. I ain't the one talking about you. You have to look behind your back for the backstabbers not in front of your face. I have been ill with MS and haven't been online. The people you think are friends are the ones who have been having meetings about you, I might add that i had nothing to do with. I have received letters about you, from people in the lobby and have given thre same answer to everyone. I don't give a fuck and it's nothing to do with me. I ain't interested in anything you are doing. The only problem I would have is if it is one of my friends involved. So take note of my real friends through my blogs and add attractivehorny. These people are off limits to you.
Like you said you don't know who you are talking to on the web, well you don't know either. Stay away from my friends and you will be out of my face and out of my mind. You are ignored in the chatrooms, as much as you think you annoy me you don't. I don't give a fuck and these letters won't change the way you stabbed me in the back twice for men. But then like I have heard that is your business. Leave my friends alone and I will leave you alone.


A diary to keep all of my secrets
A way to relieve my pain,
A pen to write down my feelings inside,
As thoughts of you are all I gain.
A best friend who was always there,
To help me through my thoughts,
A shoulder to cry on every day,
When these tears always come lots.
A memory of u and all the lies,
A fake smile to please a friend,
A notebook filled with thought out words,
Of how I can possibly mend.
A word to cleverly deceive
A promise u already break,
A lie said here and there,
Is more than I can take.
A life of yours I just can't understand
A heart that's been so broken,
No one to lend a helping hand.
A broken memory is all that remain,
A girl who's trapped in her own thoughts,
In her mind there's nothing left but anger and pain.
Then I look around,
I've come back to reality,
A tear streams down my lonely cheek,
Revealing the painful life of me...
And to think we were once friends...

ThaRealLiv 43M

6/3/2006 5:08 am

We're all sinners. We're all innocent.

ThaRealLiv 43M

6/3/2006 5:12 am

Who you are inside has more value then what society allows you to show. The majority is not always right. Times are changin. On both sides. Keep your direction.

SoSleekynSmooth 49F

6/17/2006 4:39 am

    Quoting ThaRealLiv:
    Who you are inside has more value then what society allows you to show. The majority is not always right. Times are changin. On both sides. Keep your direction.
I have to go along with your well said words @ ThaRealLiv. Have courage to keep going like you gave me the time to consider my options in my life. Thank you for being a friend to me. Hope I get enough time to get to know the inner you.

4biddenlove4us replies on 6/24/2006 8:12 pm:
I'm glad I got the chance to meet you and we seem to share a bond, the profile suited you perfectly so hence it is now yours to do with what you want but it seems that the minute I wrote it for you I was seen to be you. Please treat it with respect as I showed you. To get respect is to give respect and forget the hurt of your past, just take each day as it comes, it gets better with time. Time is a great healer. GOOD LUCK in your future and you can call me whenever you need me!! Love Bev {=}

4biddenlove4us 49F

7/18/2006 9:08 pm

    Quoting ThaRealLiv:
    Who you are inside has more value then what society allows you to show. The majority is not always right. Times are changin. On both sides. Keep your direction.
I appreciate everything you say to me because every word you say has a special meaning to me. Thank you

Passion247000 46F
3195 posts
8/1/2006 11:48 am

I understand.... I feel the same way, sweetie.... thinking of you.......wishing you well.....

4biddenlove4us replies on 8/1/2006 6:53 pm:
Thanks love, it means alot coming from you

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