A Story not to be Told  

4biddenlove4us 49F
262 posts
5/30/2006 7:02 pm

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8/19/2006 11:06 am

A Story not to be Told

I always have that feeling of anger and fright,
Watching my door because he used to come by at night.
I find a way to keep my eyes open and not fall asleep,
Feelings I don't wish to tell because it hurts to much to weep!!
Please will you just not touch me anymore!
Every time you look at me I feel like a whore.
What he did that day was so very wrong,
I tried to get away but his grip was much to strong,
He pulled me back to the room alone in my house,
He had it all planned out!! I wish I could have known,
I thought I fought every step of the way and somehow knew I must have
refused to give in,
I wanted to scream what he did to me, but where to begin,
He is so terribly sick, I really got used
With his arms wrapped about me I was greatly abused,
He decided to have his sickened fun with me,
But worse I must live with it, because he set me free!
How could a man do this to me,
Every time I tried to tell someone I felt as if I would get sick and pewk.
Just the thought of how you touched me makes me sick!!!
Why did you have to pick me, there were so many other girls to pick from?
I know I am not the prettiest or the best
Why did you have to pick me out of the forsaken rest?
Now I find it so difficult to look at my reflection,
Due to all of my dirty thoughts and feeling of deception towards any other
man I feel I might love one day!!

4bidden = A Story Not To Be Told!!!

4biddenlove4us 49F

6/23/2006 8:23 am

Kaliedascope61 3081 posts
3/12/2006 8:14 am



5945 posts
3/12/2006 9:04am

very powerful

wishing you strength and healing


3281 posts
3/12/2006 10:42 am

Whew, sorry for the pain. I wish you nothing but calm seas, and blue skies ahead.

1 post
3/12/2006 9:44 pm

i am here to help...love ya

23 posts
3/12/2006 10:01 pm

Very Powerfull DamnTempt love you can always talk to me when you want to love you Damn


2890 posts
3/13/2006 1:52 am

I am sorry for you pain and that anyone could have hurt you so deeply. I hope the future brings you peace... drop by and say hi sometime. Elysian


7 posts
3/21/2006 3:11 pm

tis such a shame that he had no respect for you.....Like I know you desirved...you have so much class that he has done nothing but make you bury it away Beautiful. to bad he did not pay attention to how much inner beauty you have....Michael

12 posts
3/23/2006 1:30 am

The honest, flows from your heart and mind, that is why i cherish you, that is why i kneel before you, like everyman should, you are in my heart as a very special and lovable person, that is all you need to know, walk away from those that, do not let you be creative, and free.

20 posts
4/24/2006 6:59 am

I have come to love ye as me friend... your pain now flows thru me own blood... I ache to know that ye weep... we cannot change our past ...those that walk into our lives and rob us of our being...our souls....but we can walk away from it...stronger...maybe a bit wiser.. so walk wisely now me lovely lady...be ye own person....do not let others guide ye with their bitterness and destruction...carry on and be strong...let ye inner self be true to thine on self.... I am always by your side..

I COPIED AND PASTED THE ABOVE RESPONSES ON THIS BLOG BECAUSE I DELETED DamnTemptwitEyes so don't really have access to the profile since. I, 4bidenlove4us was DamnTemptwitEyes and deleted many others I use to use but now have only two profiles for those who think I have more, I don't. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

Passion247000 46F
3195 posts
8/1/2006 12:08 pm

Oh sweetie... I wish I was there to protect ya.... I understand... I truly do.... 'cause I being there.... thanks to my 1st. bf.!!!!! I was all torn up inside...and it burnt me real bad!!!!!!

I wish.... I can be there to hold you and comfort ya.....

I want to know your name so I can call out for ya....

{{{{{{{please delete this reply after you read this... 'cause I am ashamed.... it's too personal for me, even me....}}} I don't wanna to ever see or re-read this again....

thinking of ya.... wishing you well....tell me how ya are....how is the c*mo? Are ya going to be all right?????

4biddenlove4us replies on 8/2/2006 8:38 pm:
No, I can't delete it because I feel your pain too and I understand exactly what you mean but I've learnt that once you get it out it gets easier with time. Trust is the keyword!!!!!!
Nothing can erase the memory but forgiveness comes easier and not all men are bad but this is a reminder to those who wish to hurt me more than I've already been hurt.
Love you and thanks for the kind words

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