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hellofagood_1

1/27/2012 6:55 pm
 Yes, he is back in my life and things are going ok.

For about the past week and a half I had been trying to find him. I NEEDED to know what exactly happened, why we were no longer together. Until I had the answer, good or bad, I wouldn't be able to let it go. Something in me just couldn't let it go.

I called his old number again. It was still his voice on it. So I called it, no answer. Didn't expect one. I began to text it again and this time I just didn't stop. I kept pushing for answers. At first I was thinking it was Shawn and he was just trying to be nice and say things like don't give up etc, etc....

Whoever it was that I was texting got a message to a friend of Shawns to tell him that I was looking for him, that I wanted to hear from him. I was told he got the message and if I really wanted to hear from him, he would get a hold of me. For the next couple of days I continued to text this guy...not fully sure I believed him as far as who he was.

I came home from work one day and was expecting my son to come home. Heard someone at the door and assumed it was him....dog was barking but no one came in. I finally go to the door and look out and it was Shawn. He was walking away. I opened the door so damn fast.....he came in the door...and pulled me to him and we just hugged. I started crying right away....I couldn't believe he was there...in front of me.

It took me some time to stop. I still can't believe it.

He had gotten fired, and had no way to get a hold of me. The phone he had was a company phone and all his numbers were in it. He went home and kinda felt sorry for himself for a few weeks. He was mad at himself and the world. By the time he got back to wanting to get back to life he figured he had lost me or that I would be pretty pissed at him as well. He found another job and tried to put me out of his mind.

I will admit...at first I was mad, but then I got over that and I just wanted him to be ok....him to be happy.

We talked some more, he said he never forgot about me and never stopped loving me. There was no one else and that the job he had was just really stressing him out and getting to him. I know what that's like.

So we are back together and I am very happy about that. I know my friends are going to question that and that is ok, just means they care about me. If for some reason this time it doesn't work this time.....I will be ok. I will know I at least gave it a try. I believe in my heart though that this is right. I can't explain it...it's just a feeling. He also said he wants to move here...to be with us.
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