my life story, in blog form  

31virgin 42M
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1/30/2006 7:32 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

my life story, in blog form

I have this fear that I'm going to lose the people i have met here. granted i have only met two girls, but its the only two i know.

let me give you some background on me, i apologize its nothing erotic but no one really knows the real me.

i was born and raised on a farm, we milked 50 head of Holsteins , raised vegetables and i have worked damn near every day of my life.
in school i had no real friends , and i could never have anyone over because we were so busy.
i quit school at 18, and worked with my father full time on the farm.
i had one true friend my hole life , my nephew, he was only 2 years younger than me. we did everything together. till eight years ago he left my house after helping me with the barn chores and was hit by a drunk driver not a hundred yards from the driveway. he was killed instantly, i had never been that depressed , my life changed that night. i went into a state of seclusion, and drank every Chance i could get.

8 years ago i started working for my brother, because the farming business was going down hill fast, the pay was good but the hours were the same , never any free time.

i feel into a routine of getting up , working, and sleeping. for 31 years thats all i have done.

now i have lived on my own for the last 5 years with the same routine , i don't know if any of you have ever lived by your self and never had any friends but it gets lonely, and the bottle becomes your friend. i have been getting away from drinking so much, now its mostly a drink here and ther, not all the time.

I'm not writing this for pity, i just like people to see my side of things.

i don't know if this will hurt my chances with meeting people here, but the truth never hurts.

if you have read this hole entry thank you.
leave me a note on what you thought, it would be appreciated.

Seereeoslee 36F

1/31/2006 9:19 pm

Don't delete this.

It's so honest.

We'll chat.

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