A Little Closer.......  

2TimesFirst 58M
72 posts
3/4/2006 5:07 pm

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3/27/2006 7:34 am

A Little Closer.......

This is my second week here, I just discoverd the blogs. There pretty cool.
I would like to introduce myself and give a little history before I start to blog, alot.
I came from a odd family. My Mother was illigitimate, the product of a . My father was raised by relatives becuase his mother was an alcholic, so was he. He never knew his dad. They both had above average inteligence and alot of problems. In my family you didn't hug. cry, or say you had a problem. We never lived in one place more than a year and a half. My dad was always dissapearig for days/weeks/months. We had lots of money at times, and I mean lots, and none at times, At six I ate a hole jar of peanut butter cause thats all there was. I don't want anyone felling sorry for me because I don't think I would change much of it If I could. Living on the edge was good for me and I have only settled down since 1998.
When I say I lived on the edge most of you probubly don't know what I mean. Alot of people talk about living free to do what they want. I've done it. In New orleans I rarely saw the sun. I lived in the quaters and loved it. Had lots of money to spend and blew the whole wad in less than a year. Hiked (not hitched) out pretty much broke and never felt better. I had no place to go and didn't care. I lived on the beach as much as possible. Fished, camped, worked at day labor camps. Met some amazing people, met some dangerous people. One day I hooked up with a gay guy and we started to talk about ideas we had. We developed one, made a shitload of money and I was off again. went to Miami for awhile, didn't like it, went to daytona, ok, then I ended up in these mountains. Love it.
I miss the traveling. I would love to go back to Bali or Singapore. Yes I did some overseas traveling too. Alot. But one day I was thinking about all the places in the US I had been, and the thought of all the places I still haven't been. I told a friend in N.O. a few months ago I had the urge to head back to LA. or Arizona. He said " you can't do that you have a kid now." Typical, Afraid to live answer. My kid would love it. Lack of money couldn't stop me. Family ties wouldn't stop me, the only thing that could stop me is the Idea that I can't do it, and "I can't do it" does not exist in me. Thats free and no one can take it!

deliciousngood 64F
1665 posts
3/8/2006 6:41 pm

What do they say...freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose!


rm_goddess1946 105F
13518 posts
3/11/2006 7:46 pm

You can do anything that you really want to do. Wanting to
do it always is the question....

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

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