When i was 22  

1playfulgal 39F
7112 posts
9/13/2005 12:00 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

When i was 22

I'm not sure what the trigger was...but i gradually started to accept who i was and what my body was and was not...

During those two years without sex...i got a lot of soul searching done and decided that I was great just the way I was...I started wearing heels and skirts...stopped dressing like a boy...

learned a few things about my soul...discovered that things that i thought had been broken in my soul had just been damaged and that they were slowly healing...

So shortly after i turned 22 i packed up and left Vancouver...determined to make a new start...build a life where I didn't feel stuck being who i had been...

To start fresh...I reinvented myself...and that was the first time in many years that i could say that i was truly happy...

For a year or so anyway...but that is another story...for another day...

beewulf9 38M

9/13/2005 5:06 am

Sounds like you spent a lot of work and brought your will to bear. You are a womderful woman who is easy to stare at.

spikeryder 49M

9/13/2005 7:03 am

I think once we finally admit to ourselves who we are, and are comfortable with that, we can start to be happy.
If we try to live our lives as, we think, others think we should, nothing will ever be good enough.

SoljerBlu 39M

9/13/2005 10:03 am

The only problem with repainting the face in the mirror is that you're still you. I spent 20 years with my hair to the middle of my back, and one day I saw a charicature of me. So I put it in a braid and tied it off and cut it off. I mailed it to my mom (who always said,"you're such a handsome man, if you'd only cut your hair). For awhile I just thought, "now I'm a geek and no women will even look at me." ... and I was right!.. not true! I'm still the old hippy I've always been, just undercover now.

rm_FreeLove999 46F
16127 posts
9/13/2005 10:51 am

reinvention is a lot of fun -- i always like to do it...

[blog freelove999]

dano6332 56M

9/13/2005 1:03 pm

mmmmmmm I would have to say these are my greatest times of self discovery. I was married at 20 and have never really had the chance to take care of my needs and wants until now. I do not begrudge the times I missed as I could not be prouder of my sons but there is an incredible world out here and I am enjoying it. I am looking forward to more of your story.

SpainSmooth07 38M
1 post
9/13/2005 7:55 pm

I realized that at the age of 27 I too had a similar encounter when I was 16. Thanks for sharing such a story. I'm wondering if you and I can meet up some time and share more stories. I speak fluent Spanish and Italian and some French, but English, minus my accent, is becoming a favorable language. Well, buona notte! Ciao!

rm_bedlam247 45M

9/13/2005 10:57 pm

For some a geographical cure is just the cure. I was fed up where I was living, so my dog & I drove 5000 miles to Alaska.
Life couldn't be better.
Here's to ya!

bozzman88 53M
4 posts
9/14/2005 12:20 am

good for you girl,i only wish i did the same years ago.

rm_unlistedone 65M
2718 posts
9/14/2005 12:47 am

If what you reinvented, is what you are today... then you did a fantastic job, playful.
As Billy Joel said, "I love you just the way you are." Have a wonderous day... unlisted

rm_Trucker3030 63M
151 posts
9/14/2005 1:01 am

I've found that life can be much simpler if you are simply yourself. All of us are individuals, so don't be afraid to go your own way. I've been that way for as long as I can remember, and for some reason, maybe it's because I'm a non-conformist, people who have gotten to know me never forget who I am. (That might not be good!lol) I'm glad how things have worked out for you. You have done well, playful. But I must say, if you looked any hotter and sexier back in your teen years, I couldn't have handled it. Looking at you now almost brings on a meltdown! (As well as making things stand up!)

lookin4some1105 46M
31 posts
9/14/2005 12:28 pm

Reinvention is sometimes very healthy. I did it when I was in my mid twenties. I also spent a lot of time healing and soul searching so to speak, on two seperate occasions I have gone a year without. I really needed to know what the hell it was I wanted and what was going to make me happy. "How the hell could I expect somebody to be what I was looking for if I have no idea what I want??" was the question I asked myself the first time. And the second time I was healing after thinking I had found what I wanted only to findout a year into a relationship, that she was changing it wasn't going to work.

Oh the memories.. Both good and bad


bigred4499 60M
87 posts
9/14/2005 3:18 pm

Playful Life happens for a reason we all find the light at different ages Bigred

rm_randybirch 44M/45F
49 posts
9/14/2005 3:23 pm

congratulations for figuring that out so young! We are all beautiful woman and from the looks of it, you are beautiful on the outside, from your writing, you are beautiful on the inside. Keep searching. Your body will continue to grow and change and you will have to keep accepting it.

Good luck!!!

Luv on ya!


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