The year from hell  

1playfulgal 39F
7112 posts
8/25/2005 12:14 am

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The year from hell

Grade 10 for me was hellish because of the person mentioned in the previous post...her barking and insults continued and got worse through out the year and as the year went by i withdrew farther into myself...

I started wearing baggy pants...t-shirts...and combat boots...which just seemed to give her more ammunition to mock me with...

All i wanted was to become invisible...

That was when the pot smoking started...and the skipping school...I would go to the classes that i shared with her seldomly... and when i did show up i was usually stoned...

I had a small group of friends...but only friends because we were all outcasts and well why not atleast hang together...misery loves company...

I became a wallflower...not seen...not heard...i became very good at being invisible...

Tejinashi 45M

8/25/2005 4:27 am

Hey - here's something positive though;

You're not alone in the torment. I went through very similar situations (although I had an accent to contend with as well for their humour). I withdrew into myself. Joined (and eventually ran a part of) the Stage Crew. Started organising people with similar interests and playing more and more games....

All those skills have been usefull in my life now. I work for one of the largest companies in the world in it's field due to my knowledge of the field, and have helped organize an national convention (including running it's local domain for quite awhile).

My great epiphany ths year after the 5 year relationship break up was this: The mistakes and past aren't really what's important. It's how you pick up the peices and learn from it that matters.

So - you need to think about what you learned from those days. NOT what you remember. NOT what you feel. What you LEARNED skill-wise.

For example, do you have any insights into the pot-usage that might be helpful to kids these days ? Do you think you may have helped any of the other 'misfits' out with where they are now in life ? Etc....

Just think about where you were, and how much you have grown and expanded beyond that now.

You do seem like you've come along way. Just being on this site is proof enough to me.

luckywithladeez 49M
266 posts
8/25/2005 4:37 am

I never would have guessed. You look like the life-of-the-party kind of gal to me.

Well, with well over 235,000 views of your blog loaded in the last eight days, I think it's safe to say that you are no longer invisible.

Have you thought about returning to school, or? There are more opportunities than ever, including on-line.

patsam69 51M/51F

8/25/2005 6:18 am

I had a similar experience with a girl when I was in 8th grade. I had a boyfriend the year before...and then the next year he was her boyfriend. Well she decided that she hated me cause of this and needed to make my life miserable. she would follow me and make fun of everything about me. my hair...clothes, shoes...anything she wanted. she would push me in the halls. I tried to ignore her . I cried myself to sleep at night. I finally talked to my parents about it. They were supportive and asked if I wnated them to call the school... I said no. I told them I was afraid of getting in trouble with them or with school if I were to get into a fight. They told me to do what I had to do ...they would stick with me. day I was walking down the stairs at school...Diane came up behind me and stuck me in the ass with a pin. I went blind with rage ...all I remember is turning and hitting her as hard as I could and we fell down the stairs. When teachears broke it up...she was crying I was not! I was scared though. we had to go to the principals office. well guess what?? She got into trouble ..not me. apparently...she was a trouble maker.

My friends told me all about the I didnt even know would stop and say...hey you kicked Dianes ass! It was a good feeling...but filled with mixed emotions.
after a few weeks...I saw her following another poor girl. I guess this was her way to make herself feel superior to others. And that was all that girl was doing to you.

drnick20054 28M

8/25/2005 7:45 am

if she saw u now, she would probably want to fuck u. i now i do

Philosophy_N_Sex 49M/47F

8/25/2005 10:47 am

has happened to me as well.. I never got to get revenge though

AmberSolaire 42M

8/25/2005 1:59 pm

I feel I missed out on all this teenage angst.

rm_willie8one2 70M
573 posts
8/25/2005 2:28 pm

I was young looking in high school, my senior year many thought I was a freshman, 5'5" 105lb. but I grew to 5' 9" 168 now. Many of the kids in my class did not want to hang around with me due to this. This caused me no end of problems trying to get a date. In collage I still had this problem finding a date as when I was 22 many thought I was 16. When I was 23 I was drafted and even then most thought I was 18. My first wife at first told me I was too young for her even though at that time I was 6 years older than her. The good that came from this is as I aged everyone thought I was younger than I really was and in my 40's I loved it but time has a way of catching up with us want it or not.

NickRules999 39M
9464 posts
8/25/2005 4:03 pm

Been there. I can relate.

During my junior high school years, I was the favourite target of many who loved to throw their weight around. I could never catch a break. Not only that, but the teachers targeted me too. Not even the principal was on my side. For a guy with ADHD, and a history of lashing out at everyone when provoked, the Utah school system was not a friendly place. It got to the point wear the teasing, insults, and even beatings got too much, and the principal wouldn't do anything about it, he even told my grandma that I was "their little bowling ball," something that still pisses her, and me, off to this day. I was pulled out of that school, and sent to another, where the same bullshit took place.

When 8th grade came along, I was sent to the "last chance" school. Screw up there, and it's straight to juvi. I began to realize my temper got me in a lot of trouble, which is why I distanced myself from everyone, trying to stay out of trouble. I even had a cousin who went there, and he was getting what I got in other schools. I felt bad, coz I couldn't defend him. That would mean getting into a fight, and I wanted to avoid that. It wasn't till I moved to Washington State that my school years got better. Better system. Teachers who were more concerned about teaching than punishment. Getting out of Utah was the key. Had I stayed, I think I'd have dropped out.

Come into my realm! You aren't afraid...are you?

MiAmore62 49M

8/25/2005 4:58 pm

I had somethin like this happen..... cept it only lasted for one week. I finally kicked him in the balls so hard they had to take him out in an ambulance. He never fucked with me again...and he never said who did what.....he said he fell down the stairs..... so go find this bitch an kick her right in the cunt.... and if ya can, take her back to the school an do it!

captaindischarge 45M

8/25/2005 5:11 pm

my year from hell was 1998, i found out that my kid was not my kid, sucked, ended up single again, thats the short side version...

bcvegas4u2 69M
45 posts
8/26/2005 12:05 am

Been there, know what your talking about. My first bully was in the 4th grade, I think. He was bigger than the other kids & had been kicked out of the public schools in the area so our parochial school was the only on left around. I was one of the kids he picked on all the time. I don't remember how long I took the crap he handed out but I've learned, over the years, that I take things as long as I can & then snap. He finally pushed me to the limit, don't remember what but as we walked back to class I jumped him & somehow got him to the ground. Two teachers pulled me off him as I sat on his chest & banging his head on the ground.

Although he continued to go to our school for several more years he didn't push me very far after that. When I went to High School there he was. Still a bully & he DID remember, at first sight, me but he wasn't interested in doing anything but verbal sparring with me.

I always seemed to be an outsider in school. Of cource, going to 6 different schools in my last 6 years didn't help. There's a 40th high school reunion coming up in a couple of months. I kind of want to go to see who there & what they look like but then would I remember anyone. Or better yet , would anyone remember me?

Fuzzyface51 65M
22 posts
8/26/2005 6:41 pm

You are one beautiful woman, 1palyfulgal, if I ever got the chance, I wure would like to make you feel like the princes that you are. Doesn't school seem like another life time. I was a short puggy boy that always got picked on all the way through school, that is until my senior year. All the baby fat rolled away that summer and when I came to school, nobody recognized me. When the bullies finally figured it out they just couldn't wait to catch up on their bullying. Boy did they get a surprise. Funny thing though, I made more than one trip to the principals office along with one of the one or another of the bullies after a "disturbance". The principal always sent me back to class and I could hear the big paddle all the way down the hall. It didn't take long for the work to get around. I not only had a new body, I had a new attitude! Signed: Fuzzyface51

rm_bubba8729 42M

8/26/2005 8:35 pm

Hey I was like that at school also. Needless to say not very popular. But now at the age of 30 I come to realize that did me more good than it ever did harm.. I see my class mates from time to time and im not very impressed with what they did with their lives..For example when we meet the discussion of jobs always comes up, marriage etc. They cant believe how incredibly I have smoked them in the game of life.. They totally respect and admire me now, but i say the hell with them if I wasnt good enough for you then im not good enough for you now.Most of them are waiting for their parents to die so they can inherit what little their lazy asses are going to have..They unlike me had a chance to go to college and pissed everything else their parents gave them away.. I make 50,000.00 a year compared to their profit if there is any left after they snort up all of their dope.. In short they are living a life of pure hell and misery from hand to mouth.. Ihope you read this and it cheers you up because every word is the truth..Sincerely bubba8729...

Hampmeister 57M

8/26/2005 8:46 pm

"I became a wallflower...not seen...not heard...i became very good at being invisible.."

Um....hate to tell you but you seem to have lost the knack....

Seriously, though, I'm very happy for you (and the world too) that you managed to move from there to where you are now. You're one dynamite lady, and that comes from way more than my appreciation of your luscious body. Yea, verily I would love to fuck your brains out. I'd also count myself blessed to have some time to talk face to face and get to know who you are. Plz don't be offended but if I had to choose one or the other, it'd be the talk. Guess I should turn in my sex fiend card....

rm_manforrhire 44M

8/26/2005 11:11 pm

Take the good with the bad, and the bad with the good. That way, at least you're getting something.

hardtoland 29M
51 posts
8/27/2005 12:19 am

I went through the're not alone

until; Senior year, The Capt. of the Football team made a crack about my coat, It was a black leather coat, looked like the Coat that the people wear in the movie 'Sin City'. Well, I was already having a bad day, I walked right up to him, Gritted my teeth, clenched my fist, and hammered him right in the face.

He hit the ground with a thud. the whole Varsity football team looked at me with a look of 'What the Hell'

I looked at all of them, picked up my pack and kept walkin', but there was a tad bit of strutting, I must confess.

looking4fun1465 46M

8/27/2005 12:06 pm

You know, reading your postings, you seem like such a cool and interesting person !!! I'm a little surprised that you let someone bother you that much !!! Did you or do you really care what that person thinks of you !!!! and would you ever want to be friends with that person anyway !!! That person did things like that because she was or is so insecure with herself she needed to either deflect crap away from herself or needed to put other people down because she thought so little of herself !!!! Fuck Her !!! and look at how cool and interesting you are !!!! Your Blog is one of the best because of who you are, you are interesting and open, fun, funny and cool !!!! be yourself and if people don't like it, it is their loss !!!!

dano6332 56M

8/31/2005 10:05 am

Did you ever get closure with this/her? I had gotten a lot of shit when I was younger for hanging with the stoners but we all grow up and it was somewhat satisfying to see the worst of the bunch as an adult. A miserable drunk who could not hold a job. Sure it was petty of me to get satisfaction from his misery but I think it is all karma

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