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She Hates Me!!!
She Hates Me!!!
Well the last time I seen Jo-Anne (so called mother) was when I was like 5/6 for a week..
I seen her the 24th of sep 2005, she was rude, and blamed a 3yr old for everything like she wasn't the one that left, she said I killed my sis or bro (she was 10weeks into the pregnancy, when she had a miscarriage) that my dad didn't want me but my Nan went with her to see if she was pregnant and was standing next to her when she told my dad (he was happy), that my dads a drugo and alcoholic (but I'm with him when he drinks and that like once a week) that I don't let her get close (I was the one that contacted her, I've talked to her maybe 5times on the fone and she doesn't show many interest in my life!!! but I listen to wats happening in hers, she said my dad has bad mouth'd her all these years..BUT she knows nothing b'coz my dads not like that!!!
I had a break down that day, I don't think I've cried so much in my life.. my dad wanted me to make up my own mind about her, I was going there to tell her off but dad said to give her a change and not to say anything mean... but when I met her I didn't get any motherly vibes, no feeling that I came from her, no cuddles (we didn't even get a meter away from each other)
but the fact she doesn't know my dad or me hurts, that I'll never have a mother hurt me the most and her telling lies about dad, when he was the one that cared for me, that feed me, gave me shelter... she didn't give me anything!!! I truly wish she died giving birth to me (mean but true)
So if she wants to live in her own little world where everything is my dad and my fault... her little world is coming crashing down!!!! I'm going to make her break down just like I did!!!
she shouldn't have said that no gin name could be worse then Jackie, and she named me the BITCH.. I'm changing my name!!!
well words were said and coz I was trying to make my dad happy, she court me off guard and I didn't know how to come back to all her lies.. but around 2 is coming!!!!
i was feeling, mad, sad, disappointed, i want revenage, moody, wild, uncomfortable, shocked, scared, rejected, pissed off, nervous, irritated,
frustrated... not in that order
after that all happened i just wanted to fuk someone then 4get about everything that happened... but went to a movie instead with my cousin
9/26/2005 6:34 am
My wifes daughter is 13 years old and has seen her biological sperm donor 4 or 5 times since she was born. He does not want anything to do with her, but he did sign papers giving up his rights as her father so I could adopt her. I have been in her and her mom's life since she was 2 years old. We have given her a few chances to see him but since the adoption 7 years ago see has no interest in seeing him.|
The choice is yours to see her or not. From what yoou said it wouldn't be worth your time to pursue any relationship.She doesn't want a relationship with you it will be her loss not yours.
9/26/2005 8:27 am
She wants what you have, she is unloved and unwanted. She is nothing but a spec of dust that just lingered around for too long. Thank her for one thing though, for giving you birth and giving you such a wonderful father. She has no humility, From what I've read so far she is struggling herself and in means to get some satisfaction where her own self pity doesnt prevail she will use you and your father and feed off the negativity she conjures in order to fuel her... |
Remember one thing though, she is only human, mother or not she has her weaknessess. Like most, she craves affection.
Hope the movie was good, what ya end up seein?